I graduated in May and am currently working in an ICU. I hate it. period. It is a difficult unit culture and unsafe staffing levels exist, nurses and support staff leave as soon as they can, and it is basically a hospital wide problem as well.
I really enjoyed my time in clinical and the whole aspect and philosophy of community nursing so I originally tried to get a position in home health at graduation and was told to gain experience and then come back. Out of desperation I finally started applying again for home health after only 6 months (I can't take it anymore) and I have an interview MONDAY! I am very excited because they really ask for 1 year experience but are giving me an interview considering I have critical care experience and my work history otherwise.
Why don't I like ICU? I don't get that one on one for my patients in ICU like I think they need and as far as staffing, we will usually have three patients that are usually very acute....and this is a new grad dealing with this. Physically I am already having muculoskeletal issues due to the amount of turning and positioning of patients. I have a difficult time with the acuity level as well, i feel like I'm in a car going 100mph with a wobbly tire ready to blow and I feel like I'm going to make a huge mistake and hurt a pt due to being rushed and missing something or making a med error. This is why I felt hospital nursing was wrong for me from the start but I took the job and felt I could handle it for a year. I can't. I feel bad about myself because I am an adult and am very capable normally, but this icu position is the first time I really have felt like walking away from a commitment.
I feel very guilty about looking for another job, and I dread having to give notice if I get this position, but on the other hand I will be pursuing my original goal of HH nursing.
Can you tell me the honest truth about the good and bad of home health? I have my own opinions, but no experience other than school clinicals, care to share? I am a very good interviewer but I would like some tips on strengths to highlight in an interview. Thanks in advance and pray for me if you read this.