When the nurse becomes the patient

I have always been a hyperchondriac since I started nursing. My co-workers and I constantly joked about be self diagnosing. It was funny until something actually popped up. In 04/2009 I was dx with a Right temporal lobe tumor. I've had headaches since nursing school and was dx with migraines in college. A routine MRI following a MVA lead to the shocking discovery. I haven't stop researching brain tumors since then, I think I'm obsessed. Now, I'm really peronoid about symptoms i should be watching for. I'm frustrated with the doctors and I feel like no one is telling me anything. I have a totally different outlook on patient care now. I worry about not being able to do my job anymore. I don't know what to do!