I am overwhelmed and tired. I need to find a day shift,and I will get one soon too. But feeling 55 when Im only in my early 20's is really difficult. Especially when I am capable of doing so much. Working out has become a chore, and I used to just love doing it. Shopping,as ifI need any more clothes, living in scrubs
at night, and day, when I can go out, im tired and exhausted. Friends, I dont have any here, i am very independent, and although I can build friendships, there are really miserable people here, who gossip and talk about people. Thats not my crowd, and I rather keep my values, than have desperation and loneliness drive me to certain cliques.
Any who, I am faithful tho, thank you guys for your responses. Maybe a new "boo" or somethinig would be nice. lol. I just feel so disconnected with the world, and lacking interest in anything. I have an quick "i dont care" mentality, because Im too tired to think. Im afraid that I will miss out of things becaise of what this night shift does to me.
Thanks again guys,
p.s.as awkward as this may sound, it'be nice to be motivators of each other, especially if you feel the way I do. Just simply reminding eachother of being motivated. My family doesnt get the struggle, although they have tried. but its all good.