The time has come, so say your prayers (to the tune of midnight oils song)

Ah. My wife and I are doing the travel nurse thing to investigate places we would like to live. I (more than her) think we found that place in WA. Problem is, we have not been doing it long enough to put away the savings we'd want before we go into buying a home. Have to step up our savings plan if we want to get a house soon.

I was thinking, I'm spending money on a personal trainer. When I quit cold turkey (3 years str8 no smoking) before, I was exercising before I quit for about a month. Then I quit. It does help, or at least it helped me. I'd love to put down the smokes again now. It'll help the savings and I'll feel better.

Problem is, first time I quit cold turkey, I was a beast for a month. Not sure that'll mix well with nursing. When I quit before, I was a student, no danger of losing a job over being short with people. Now I'm not sure if I can do it unless I am between assignments or something, but I'd rather not wait.

What can I do to stay compassionate? Self awareness is not enough.