Nursing & Depression - page 24

While visiting in the lounge one day, we discovered that every nurse there was on an anti-depressant. I have had 'Treatment Resistant Depression' for about 20 years--as long as I've been a nurse. ... Read More

  1. by   sphinx
    More and more and no end in sight...........as for med changes, my latest psychiatrist isvery conservative, very hesitant to make changes, esp a big one like to an MAOI. That would be a BIG change, too. I've thought about it, but's that *all* I've done, is thought. After he increased my Topamax, we discussed my current stress level, and he wants me to get back to him when I can decrease my stress level, or our next appointment. His answer is always "therapy". Now, I'm not knocking therapy, but I've always had a hard time finding someone I click with, then there's the scheduling problems......it is very hard to work weekly or even biweekly therapy into my schedule! And frankly, that stresses me out even more!!!! Meanwhile, the GI problems go on.....I did have a bug of some sort, but I'd thought then that it lasted so long is cuz I have other issues. Last week I found out I have gastritis. Not a huge deal. Certainly stress related. Also, For almost 2 years I've had some sort of chest and/or epigastric pain. Last year at this time it was so severe, when I tried to have a BM it was like a butcher knive being jabbed into my belly-and twisted. At that time I had an abdominal ultrasound-negative. I had blood work, just slightly (slight) elevation in lipase level, which creeped up a little more, then dropped to nromal. Had an abdominal CT scan, also negative. Pain diminished.....more recently started with chest pain, referred to GI doc who did endoscopy and HIDA scan. Endoscopy last week found the gastritis. Got a call this week with results of HIDA scan, and guess what, my gallbladder is "dysfuntional", not emptying properly or some such. Ironicaaly, past two week, have been starting to have pain on right side, and had alwasy po-pooed the idea of it being my gall bladder since I didn't have any classic signs. Yesterday was so bad, it pained nelow my R ribs all day so bad, even though I hadn't eaten, then when I had a granola bar with a measly 6g of fat, I had that hideous stabbing pain in my epigastic area. 2 people, including a patietn told me I looked like hell, and pale, and I should go home and rest (I did). Had a short day today, and am getting ready to nap. About 10 peole this week have told me how pale I look. Anyway, I was told about low fat diet...yeah, well for the most part I do eat low fat, with occasional splurges like pizza once a week. I have this pain every day regardless of what I eat. I have had it all day today despite having only oatmeal (4g fat) in the am, then just now yogurt with no fat. The PA mentioned having my gallbladder out. I'm thinking that might be a good idea, but don't want to rush into things. I am depressed, in pain, tired and confused. I am just tired of being alive. (yeah doc, cut out my gallbladder, and don't worry if the knife slips, haha).....
  2. by   sanakruz
    Sphinx- pain and depression follow the same neural pathways- If you are depressed you hurt more and if you hurt your depression worsens. I always tell clients at the clinic the best tretment for depression is med and therapy- I know its hard to click with some body> Seems like this BB has turned into a support group of sorts. Ask your doc to help you find a group in your area. Face to face therapy is effective, honest. And get rid of that foolish gb (The nerve of that type of betrayal! And at a time like this!)
  3. by   sphinx
    As far as therapy goes, I'm not knocking it, or saying I'll never try it again, but if it's so effective, then why hasn't it been a bit helpful in the many years of depression? (And I've tried many therapists, etc). Also, with the hours I worked (uh, all day..........no time to fit in appointments, esp weekly ones) it's really tough. When I was in a therapy group last year it was tough getting there on time or at all cuz I'd get busy or stuck at a patient's house......then I didn't click with the therapist, and had nothing in common with the other members, whose problems seemed universes away from mine (non had ever been hospitalized, attempted suicide or ever did any form of self harm, most had been on only one, maybe 2 meds if at all, none had tried ECT......I mean, I felt like the freak of the group. One woman had been in the group for 7 years, and said she stayed so long because "some women get their nails done, some get their hair done or massages, I come to group" Yeah, we had soooooooo much in common, yuppers. Anyway, we shall see.......I was hoping to find out something re: new job, you know finding another option, not being full time, whatever...then looking for a therapist,so I don't have the stress of scheduling appointments when I have no time for them! Oh well, I have a massive headache, and my side aches bad, so it's off to sleep for me (despite a 3 hour nap).
  4. by   mario_ragucci
    Originally posted by psychnurse.com
    Sphinx- pain and depression follow the same neural pathways- If you are depressed you hurt more and if you hurt your depression worsens.
    I love the way this sounds because it just made alot of sense to me. Are depression and pain considered emotions too? And, answer this question: [blank] is to happieness as pain is to depression. I never thought of emotions/individual senses traveling within specific bundles of nerves. I know pain is efferent, not motor, and thats where my limited knowledge ends.
    I wish for your depression to go away. Your not depressed; You just don't know it. I'm sorry :-(
  5. by   abrenrn
    Hey guys,

    Been great. Don't think I'll stick around this site anymore. Good luck to youda, sphinx, carpe, and others.

    Mario, get a life.
  6. by   carpe_de_em
    Sphinx--I don't know where you live, but my mom had terrible GI distress. One day she was talking to a friend who worked at the water plant that supplied her area. He told her he didn't care what tests and standards they had to meet--they met them-- but he said, he said not under any circumstances to drink the water. She went to distilled water and the only time she's had GI trouble since, was when she told herself it was crazy--water couldn't do that to you-- and she went back to tap water and her sx returned. Just a thought.
  7. by   mario_ragucci
    Originally posted by abrenrn
    Mario, get a life.
    Good ridence to ye who display hostility.
  8. by   micro
    Because the origins of depression can be genetic, pharmalogic, endocrinal, infectious, nutritional, neoplastic, or neurologic.........

    Kinds of depression include endogenous, ............

    ..............


    micro
  9. by   sphinx
    Originally posted by mario_ragucci

    I wish for your depression to go away. Your not depressed; You just don't know it. I'm sorry :-(
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    Mario, I don't know what the hell you meant by this. I hope it's not meant to be a serious remark, because if so, I will tell you, you do not know what the hell you are talking about. I've been reserving jugdement about you, but if you really feel this, I've changed my mind.

    It's been a baaaaaaaad day
  10. by   sphinx
    hi carpe......re GI distress, that's interesting.......I do drink filtered water, does that make a difference? And they did find both gastritis and a "dysfunctional gallbladder", which while that sucks, at least for once I know it is not "all in my head".
  11. by   sphinx
    hi carpe......re GI distress, that's interesting.......I do drink filtered water, does that make a difference? And they did find both gastritis and a "dysfunctional gallbladder", which while that sucks, at least for once I know it is not "all in my head".
  12. by   sphinx
    arrrrgghhhh!!! I just was posting about an issue I've been dealing with today which has me very upset, and I shifted, and lost it (I'm on my couch, the mouse must have clicked on the back button). I'm too tired to repost it. But let's just say, I am letting a stranger get to me.....she is e-mailing me, being nasty, etc....and I am a fool, getting obssessive and sucked in, and replying (in a polite way) trying to get her to see the light, when I know she never will. She is just a nasty person. But I am so angry at myself for letting this thing consume almost my entire day. I've let people get to me like this before, and I know I shouldn't let it happen. But I feel this need to defend myself when people lie about me. I think its ok if someone doesn't like me, but at least have it be for a good reason, not stupid stuff that isn't true.
    I know you have no idea what I am talking about. So I'll just stop yakking about it. My point? Is anyone ever get so obsessive about things like this? Or is it just me?
  13. by   cargal
    Sphinx,
    I am obsessive about things like this too. I am really sensitive. I hated it when people say that, like when my mother used to say I was too sensitive- that is part of who you are and may or may not be a good thing depending on the circumstances. I am sorry that someone emailed you something nasty. Can you block them? Just remember that the internet can open us up for something like that- the sheer numbers of people out there with easy access to do something like this. This type of behavior is nasty and stupid, so please just try to ignore it. A response from you is just what they want-they are probably bored with no life. Don't feed into it.

    Blessings,

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