I was reading some old posts from some people that were about 2 years old and wanted a fresh thread on this. Any nurses out there with Bipolar (BP) Disorder? How have you managed it? What kinds of things have happened for you?
I loved my job for awhile. Now I wonder if the stress is just too much. I work on a high stress, busy busy floor...who doesn't these days. I love the hospital I work for, but I am having a lot more issues lately than ever before. I am going to see my boss today and I'm concerned about what she is going to reprimand me about.
I am very open about my BP, but lately, people are telling me that it has gotten a lot worse. I don't know why. I am on the brink of being hosptialized again. I know if this happens, I will loose my job. I have called out a lot becuase of physical problems and other times due to my BP. My boss has been very nice about keeping me aboard.
My main problems right now are with anger. ..followed by depression. I have never gone off on a patient no matter how bad they have been. My problems are with co-workers. Also, I did break down in front of a patient 2 weeks ago because I was so stressed and couldn't get help from anyone.
I'm just perplexed at what this disorder has done to me. I cannot see myself doing anything different. I feel lost.
Anyone out there?
>.< it sounds like you're really going through a rough patch. I think the most important things for the illness. Is having a low stress job, which by the sounds you don't have, surround yourself with political conflict and drama and it really sucks the energy and happiness out of you. .
If you really think things are going bad and your stress is off the charts that's really the time to take some time off even if it's just a couple of days to calm yourself and think through things. It might sound silly but it really works and is something I do if everything becomes overwelming and stressful.
Do you love your job and co-workers? Or is there a less stressful area you could go into?
Just remember there's only one of you and you have to look after yourself ok? Turning yourself into a worn rag at the workplace won't do anyone any good for you or your employer nor patients. Maybe a holiday? If you have the hours?
Sorry I couldn't be anymore help but sending you the best of wishes!!
Last edit by Gold_SJ on Nov 24, '12