Is Nursing Really for me? I think I hate it...

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I am in my last year of nursing and it's not even a full year. I have been so low throughout this journey. I have wanted to commit suicide several times due to school stress and I feel like my life is always a spiral out of control. I can not figure out if it's nursing, my life, or everything put together. I have been sort of pushed into nursing by my family growing up but never knew if I would like it. I then went to medical assistant school, then went to community college for nursing... got my CNA.. worked in a nrsing home for a while.. then went to a university and now doing full blown clinicals and going for a BSN. I never truly HATED nursing because I love people and I have a huge heart but... I don't handle stress very well. I was never taught very good coping skills and stress makes me down right ill physically and mentally. All nursing is .. is stress. I don't really like the high school attitudes of most of the nurses I have worked with and it just seems so tedious. I don't know what to do and I am always fighting with myself over money, the career being better outside of school (so it is rumored), people saying there are other options (which I don't know if I would like those either), etc. These thoughts become so overwhelming that I feel like there is no reason for me to live because happiness will never be an option for me. I have no real supports like most people have a family of sorts but I don't really. Emotionally I'm bone dry with the exception of my fiance' which he can only help so much. I just don't know what to do and I am so tired of battling with the reasons why I should and should not. Physically I am tired all of the time and the tiredness makes me dizzy and sometimes I feel like I am going to faint. I have lost weight, dieted, exercised, etc and have been on meds at times for depression and it really didn;t help. I was still conflicted and still hurting. I know I am not the only one that feels this way but there never is a real clear answer. I already feel so alone most nights and nursing is all I really have to be proud of... what can I do?

I am in my last year of nursing and it's not even a full year. I have been so low throughout this journey. I have wanted to commit suicide several times due to school stress and I feel like my life is always a spiral out of control. I can not figure out if it's nursing, my life, or everything put together. I have been sort of pushed into nursing by my family growing up but never knew if I would like it. I then went to medical assistant school, then went to community college for nursing... got my CNA.. worked in a nrsing home for a while.. then went to a university and now doing full blown clinicals and going for a BSN. I never truly HATED nursing because I love people and I have a huge heart but... I don't handle stress very well. I was never taught very good coping skills and stress makes me down right ill physically and mentally. All nursing is .. is stress. I don't really like the high school attitudes of most of the nurses I have worked with and it just seems so tedious. I don't know what to do and I am always fighting with myself over money, the career being better outside of school (so it is rumored), people saying there are other options (which I don't know if I would like those either), etc. These thoughts become so overwhelming that I feel like there is no reason for me to live because happiness will never be an option for me. I have no real supports like most people have a family of sorts but I don't really. Emotionally I'm bone dry with the exception of my fiance' which he can only help so much. I just don't know what to do and I am so tired of battling with the reasons why I should and should not. Physically I am tired all of the time and the tiredness makes me dizzy and sometimes I feel like I am going to faint. I have lost weight, dieted, exercised, etc and have been on meds at times for depression and it really didn;t help. I was still conflicted and still hurting. I know I am not the only one that feels this way but there never is a real clear answer. I already feel so alone most nights and nursing is all I really have to be proud of... what can I do?

It seems to me that you have a beautiful and poetic soul. You talk about loving people and having a huge heart and that to me shows that something is very special about you because it takes A LOT to love another person. Yes, nursing can be stressful at times but the best thing about nursing is that it's flexible. You can choose what kind of nurse you want to be and where you want to work...there are even some areas in nursing that are in less stressful environments (e.g. aesthetic nursing). I personally wouldn't want to work in an area that demands too much from me and put me under so much chaotic pressure and if that would be the case i can always quit and find work somewhere else! Just know there's always alternatives. If you want someone to talk to you can message me :]

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