When I passed my boards, I was the happiest person in the world. I could not wait to get into the workforce and start working as a nurse. Unfortunately, where I'm from, there is an over saturation of new grads, so needless to say, to get acute experience I had to move out of state. Away from my family, friends, and life as I knew it. In the beginning, training was great. I loved learning and although there were some challenges, I knew that I made the right decision by following my dreams and working where I've always dreamed of, in critical care. My training was in the AM shift and now that I am officially done with training, I am now working on night shift which is a totally different world. The people I work with are different and the workload is more actually and we are always short staffed. Our pca's don't always help out either, I feel like I have to always beg them to help me out on little things (ex: help a pt. go to the restroom while I admit someone or do vitals on my pt while I take care of a critical pt who really needs me at the moment) Right now I am feeling very overwhelmed to be on my own. I find myself asking a lot of questions from the other nurses and not everyone is happy to answer my questions because I know that they are probably busy too. I get so frustrated because I am so busy that I don't even get to take any breaks and nobody even asks if I need help or if I even ate yet.
Now I find myself being different. I used to be a happy person, now I feel more and more isolative and lonesome. Maybe I'm homesick. Maybe I'm overwhelmed. Maybe it's the new shift. I'm not sure. I'm feeling very down and I just hope someone can tell me about their experience as a new grad, the positives and negatives and how did you deal with these experiences.