School is depressing me. Most days I am not motivated, have a lack of interest in things that used to make me happy...blah blah blah... The thing is I've had terrible luck with anti-depressents and firmly don not believe in them. I am considering quitting nursing school because its just too much. I want to be a nurse but I'm starting to think its not going to get any better. I have a year left and then the N-CLEX.
Im worried if I'll never be the same person I used to be.
I think depression during NS is normal. Along with anxiety. It's the nature of the beast. It's affecting me as well. I have mentioned a lot on this board that a lot of days I feel, "dead inside" just going through the motions to get it done. In clinical whenever my instructor says, "when you're the nurse..." I mentally correct them with an "if," because I have to take this on a day to day basis. Everytime a poster that is so excited that they got in makes a post, I just want to tell them that they have no idea what kind of academic hell they are in for, and that nursing school owns you for however many years you are there, but then I remember how excited I was when I got that letter and it seems like a lifetime ago. Try to hang in there though. Good nutrition, sleep (haha, when?!), and support. I think it's true what someone above said: it will make you more depressed to quit.
ETA: Up until last week, I studied all day everyday, as I was TERRIFIED to ever let my books leave my side or I would fail because the info would leak out of my brain if I wasn't looking at it constantly. Well this caused me to have mini-breakdown last week, so last weekend I made a deal with myself to study quietly at least 2 hours a day, get my work done, and then the rest of the day is for ME. My grades for the next test actually went UP, not down like I had previously feared. If you don't have me time, make it!
Last edit by QuarterLife88 on Mar 28, '12