Anyone Bipolar??? - page 6

I was wondering if anyone is, or knows of any successful bipolar nurses. I am non-medicated but cope with my symptoms via behavior modification and therapy. I do not want to rely on medication if I... Read More

  1. by   linda215
    Hulahut IS RIGHT ON THE DARN MOney...The biggest thing is being able to recongnize youre manic or depressed, I find that before I feel like I have a grand idea ( like once) I woke up and decided that very same day I was moving to LOng Beach ( granted I dont know a soul their) I judt wanted to go, I ran it by my parents who quickly told me I was being Manicky as my daddy calls it. But I can no longer think on my own sometimes I cant think let alone concentrate. But I write in a journal everyday about how I feel to keep track of my life, and sometimes go back and laugh at my silly ideas. ( implants for my butt, how dumb) I really thought about it. LOL....
  2. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from linda215
    Hulahut IS RIGHT ON THE DARN MOney...The biggest thing is being able to recongnize youre manic or depressed, I find that before I feel like I have a grand idea ( like once) I woke up and decided that very same day I was moving to LOng Beach ( granted I dont know a soul their) I judt wanted to go, I ran it by my parents who quickly told me I was being Manicky as my daddy calls it. But I can no longer think on my own sometimes I cant think let alone concentrate. But I write in a journal everyday about how I feel to keep track of my life, and sometimes go back and laugh at my silly ideas. ( implants for my butt, how dumb) I really thought about it. LOL....

    Hi Linda it is nice to meet you! Hope all is well. Yeah I can relate to the grandiose ideas - I mean, I take one simply lofty inspirational thought and suddenly it becomes this great big national humanitarian project! At times it becomes so big in my mind that I have to write everything down - oh my goodness - I mean, by themselves, maybe great ideas. But my mind just runs away with them sometimes.

    Fortunately when I get that grandiose I am usually too unwell to carry them out. I will have that "creation stage" for a very short time until my thinking becomes so scrambled and sped up there is no way I could act on it. This stage of illness hasn't happened to me in a long time. Boy it is fun to have all these grand plans and delusions - at the time!

    Unfortunately the reverse is true too - I can also go thru periods where I have NO ideas and I act on NOTHING - very cautious!

    There has to be a middle ground. I feel like I have found that middle ground and have been staying there for quite a while. Thank God!

    As to you and your studies, gee, it sounds like you are still pretty labile? Or are you talking about a period of time that is less recent? I would be nervous having you for my nurse if this is how you are right now, where you say "I can no longer think on my own sometimes I cant think let alone concentrate". As a nurse you need to be able to do this! Our patients often aren't able to think or act for themselves, and they count on US to be their protector, their advocate, and be able to think FOR them.

    But I would go ahead anyway and pursue the core courses you would need towards your LPN. Who knows what will happen? Just enjoy what you are doing and studying right NOW - one day at a time - and see where God leads you.

    Good luck!
  3. by   jakaden
    hi everyone my name is nicole i am 30 years old i have two girls ages 6 and 3.i am also a single mother, and i am recently diagnosed bipolar (although i always knew i was) major denial on my part. for the past 6 years i hid it well and used just anti-depressant's (my choice) my therapist wanted me medicated a long time ago. i refused, in my eyes i was fine.

    well now i am on 10mg's Abilify for mood and 1mg Klonopin to help with my anxiety. i am very nervous about school this semester( still doin pre reqs) finally being on proper meds, i have let my grades suffer in the past two semesters because i was so unstable at those times, and i'm really scared of not getting into Nursing School since my grades aren't perfect!

    i need advice from those of you medicated and making it in school what has worked for you and those who are nurses already working how do u do it ? any advice ?

    thanx
    nicole
  4. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from jakaden
    hi everyone my name is nicole i am 30 years old i have two girls ages 6 and 3.i am also a single mother, and i am recently diagnosed bipolar (although i always knew i was) major denial on my part. for the past 6 years i hid it well and used just anti-depressant's (my choice) my therapist wanted me medicated a long time ago. i refused, in my eyes i was fine.

    well now i am on 10mg's Abilify for mood and 1mg Klonopin to help with my anxiety. i am very nervous about school this semester( still doin pre reqs) finally being on proper meds, i have let my grades suffer in the past two semesters because i was so unstable at those times, and i'm really scared of not getting into Nursing School since my grades aren't perfect!

    i need advice from those of you medicated and making it in school what has worked for you and those who are nurses already working how do u do it ? any advice ?

    thanx
    nicole

    Hi Nicole, just read this thread and also check out another one, below. Many are making it! Just gotta know yourself - and have someone that knows YOU - help you monitor yourself. Take care and Godbless - check this one out:

    http://allnurses.com/forums/f296/nur...ess-94244.html
  5. by   TopazLover
    I am bipolar and wish I had been diagnosed before 2 years ago. I went through most of my life being hypomanic. This alternated with severe depression. I got antidepressants and now know they probably made it worse. I got less ability to concentrate and short tempered.

    I have been pretty stable for 9 months. I had to add an antidepressant but that is minor compared to the past.

    Best of luck.
  6. by   guest1966930040
    Hi everyone If you'd like to skip the long version, my questions are at the bottom.

    I have a couple of questions about being bipolar and a nurse or nursing student and was hoping maybe someone could share their experience.

    I was diagnosed with bipolar II 8 years ago when I was only 18 years old. I was living with abusive parents and rebelling as a teen. My doctor said I was bipolar after treatment with an antidepressant caused some aggressive/irritable behaviors. I was on medication for a few years and felt the "cure" was worse than the "cause". I have been off meds for three years and am stable and going to school living a drama free life. However, I haven't seen a pdoc in three years. I stopped the meds after getting fed up with side effects and deciding to take control of my life and just kind of disappeared. I'm not interested in taking medication for symptoms I don't have. Understandably, my situation has changed now that I am an adult and have a family of my own.

    Now, reading about the sxs of bipolar, I feel like I may have been incorrectly diagnosed. I don't think having a past diagnosis of bipolar disorder removed would be easy, does anyone know about that? How do you get certified as healthy?

    I'm in Texas, and here the BON requires that you disclose treatment, diagnosis or hospitalization for certain mental illnesses, bipolar disorder included, in the past five years. It has been three years since I have been treated. If I finish the program I have applied to, it will be five years since treatment when I graduate and I don't think I would have to disclose it. I've read the BON rules handbook (here's a link to it), but it's in lawyer-ese (attorney speak) and is about as clear as mud to me.

    I was wondering if anyone knows if I'll be required to disclose my past dx to be accepted into an ADN program (I have been conditionally accepted already), or if I'm only required to disclose at the time of application for a license? when do you do that anyway? at the end of your education? or must you apply for some kind of temporary license to be a student nurse and disclose mental health hx to the board while you are still in school?

    I am leary of going to an adviser for fear they will deny my application into the program on basis of a past diagnosis. I'm also worried they'll just tell me to write to the BON for a declaratory order and I don't want to do that unless it is necessary. If I don't have to disclose it to them, then I prefer not to, but obviously if it is required I would not lie. I've wanted to be a nurse since I was a little girl, and had I known a past diagnosis of bipolar disorder might bar me from getting a license, I would have fought it, but at the time, I didn't know any better.

    Whew! Sorry to write a novel. I hope someone will be able to share their experience. Thanks in advance

    my questions in brief:

    *Did you have to declare past mental illness while in school, or only after graduation to apply for your license

    *When do you apply for a license? And how long do you have after graduation to take the nclex-rn?

    *Has anyone been misdiagnosed as bipolar and had the misdiagnosis corrected?
  7. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from SiggyTM
    Hi everyone
    Hi I didn't mean to take so long to answer! I wanted to have time to think about your questions and just now came across the post again! Anyway - WELCOME to the thread - did you have a chance to read the other posts that came before this one? Also check out "nurses with disabilities" forum for other answers to your questions. There are lots and lots of threads on mental illness, PTSD, depression, bipolar, you name it! Go to: http://allnurses.com/forums/f296/

    Hope all is well! Look forward to reading your future posts!
  8. by   iMedix
    Ex-spouse refuses to go back to psychiatrist or take medication for bipolar. The kids are too young to explain why they don't want to go back with other parent after parenting time is over. Does anyone have the same situation? This forum also gives all information about bipolar.

    Thank you for sharing information with you.


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  9. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from imedix
    ex-spouse refuses to go back to psychiatrist or take medication for bipolar. the kids are too young to explain why they don't want to go back with other parent after parenting time is over. does anyone have the same situation? this forum also gives all information about bipolar.

    thank you for sharing information with you.


    bipolar disorder, bipolar patients, bipolar symptoms, bipolar community, manic-depressive, mania, mood swings, mood stabilizers, mental health evaluations, episodes
    you mean they don't want to leave the bipolar parent? or don't want to leave you?

    i had a similar situation for some time and my ex just had to live w/ the fact that when he was bee zarre, he didn't get ds - it was just common sense. i didn't make a huge deal of it.

    i also knew there were times when i was not the better parent - and sometimes ds went to be w/ ex. poor kid. he is surprisingly normal
  10. by   luvbug
    Quote from Liddle Noodnik
    Just wanted to say hi, yes I am still bipolar (lol) - doing fine on meds but not willing to go back to nursing real real soon.

    That compulsive thing you mentioned sounds like normal for a nurse and a mom, even without a dx!

    Take care
    How does one get diagnosed with BiPolar?
  11. by   bluegeegoo2
    I have been going to my family MD for about 5 years for "depression" and the like. Usually, when I'm in a manic state, (which I didn't even know I was in for, well, ever) I don't go in to the MD complaining. It was when the depression hit hard I would go in and c/o depression sx's, so naturally I would get tx'd for the depression. Lately, I had been feeling increasingly agitated, (persistently, with inappropriate angry responses to situations that did not warrant the reactions I was having). So I went to the MD and he finally dx'd me bipolar. I had read some on bipolar disorder, and had always thought that mania meant that someone had to be in a state of psychosis, literally bouncing off of the walls, etc. I have since learned that a persistent, angry, always short-tempered, unable to relax EVER feeling that culminates in inappropriate anger responses is a form of mania. When I finally told my MD about that aspect of my life, he dx'd the bipolar. That, along with the fact that every single time I ever take an antidepressant it shoots me to the moon (intense mania, it seems). I honestly thought that it was normal to not be able to sleep at all on antidepressants and that they were supposed to make you feel like you are crawling out of your skin. Who knew? Most of the sites I've visited on the web have a very narrow range of sx's for bipolar, while others are more informative. It helps a lot to know the sx's so you know what to tell your MD. After receiving the appropriate meds, I've been able to relax and not be mad at everything for the first time since I can remember. I've a long road ahead of me, but at least now I know what's wrong. Off to my therapy appt!
  12. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from bluegeegoo2
    I have been going to my family MD for about 5 years for "depression" and the like. Usually, when I'm in a manic state, (which I didn't even know I was in for, well, ever) I don't go in to the MD complaining. It was when the depression hit hard I would go in and c/o depression sx's, so naturally I would get tx'd for the depression. Lately, I had been feeling increasingly agitated, (persistently, with inappropriate angry responses to situations that did not warrant the reactions I was having). So I went to the MD and he finally dx'd me bipolar. I had read some on bipolar disorder, and had always thought that mania meant that someone had to be in a state of psychosis, literally bouncing off of the walls, etc. I have since learned that a persistent, angry, always short-tempered, unable to relax EVER feeling that culminates in inappropriate anger responses is a form of mania. When I finally told my MD about that aspect of my life, he dx'd the bipolar. That, along with the fact that every single time I ever take an antidepressant it shoots me to the moon (intense mania, it seems). I honestly thought that it was normal to not be able to sleep at all on antidepressants and that they were supposed to make you feel like you are crawling out of your skin. Who knew? Most of the sites I've visited on the web have a very narrow range of sx's for bipolar, while others are more informative. It helps a lot to know the sx's so you know what to tell your MD. After receiving the appropriate meds, I've been able to relax and not be mad at everything for the first time since I can remember. I've a long road ahead of me, but at least now I know what's wrong. Off to my therapy appt!

    What a great post. THANKS. I am hardly on AN anymore and I just happened to come by and see your post.

    I describe my hypomania/mania as the "too toos". I am "too" happy, angry, horny (well... I am!) or too sad, too enthused, too excitable, too full of too many ideas, too inspired, too moved, too involved, too alert, I could just go on forever. "Hyperbole" is one word that describes mania - everything is the bEST, the greatEST, the moST, the cutEST, etc...

    The other thing, really a tool, is to help describe where my moods are at. Either I am walking on the bottom of the ocean, WAYYYY over my head, drowning, and barely giving a crap! - or I am walking on TOP of the ocean (yes, implications of a bit of a Messiah complex!), and "above it all" in so many ways.

    My goal is to stay somewhere in between - my feet able to touch bottom, my neck and head well above water level, I am comfortable, floating, not scared, not EEEEEEEELATED - able to function - but aware that I could drown - or float for that matter - myself out of existence, if I do not keep myself right with God. Yep for me that is the extra added and necessary - to be right with God means to be in balance in all areas (somewhat!)

    xo and thanks again, nice to hear from you!




    (Luvbug asked): How does one get diagnosed with BiPolar?
    Luvbug, the way one USUALLY gets diagnosed is for their life to become so unmanageable they end up losing jobs, relationships, family, money, or even end up hospitalized. I don't know where you are at but you don't need to wait for it to get that bad. Ask around of those you know who see a counselor or psychiatrist, people that you know who have depression/anxiety/and or bipolar, ask where they go for counseling/psychiatrist, and whether they are any good. I think that a great church/pastor/pastoral counseling is essential - but you also need someone objective (that you can trust not to overwhelm you with meds!) who can prescribe and assess! I no longer need meds - but I am no fool - I know that I could shoot up a post office and not be aware how sick I am when I do it! So I still see my good shrink and counselor, one of them each month (alternate). Just for GP's (General Principles). Learning to live according to Biblical principles has been my mainstay and my "cure". But I am not stupid.

    Also you might want to go to some DBSA (Depression Bipolar Support Alliance) meetings in your area (call your local crisis hotline # for info on meeting times) to hear what folks have to say. They provide excellent education and support for the person w/ the illness as well as family/friends of the person w/ illness.

    You probably pretty much know inside whether there is a problem. EVERYbody has "bipolar" to some degree, not as a diagnosis but as a life characteristic. It's how far you swing from one extreme to the other (depression, to mania) that lends one the diagnosis of bipolar.

    I definitely recommend you check it out if you are wondering.

    Main treatment to me is AT LEAST 6 hrs of sleep a night! and if I don't get 6 hrs 3 nights in a row, I take some benadryl to hit myself over the head!! I also think it is extremely important you work with someone who truly knows you and can give you good feedback - a great friend, a good counselor or pastor, SOMEone who will DARE to tell you - honey, you need to CHILL! and then can give you evidence of why they are saying that!!! Honestly is so important in this - honesty w/ yourself and honesty from those who love you!
  13. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Phlox did you delete your post?

    re your ? that people are not responding re the Texas organization you mentioned, this is a national and worldwide site and very few of all THOSE members admit to or share about being bipolar - so I imagine you are the only TX'er on this thread.

    Just a thought.

    xo

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