I Didn't Know I Couldn't do it, So I did

Welcome to the Army Nursing blog, which will chronicle my progression in becoming an active duty Army nurse (66HM5, ER Nurse). I report for active duty and officer training this month. Nurses Announcements Archive Article

This morning at 0700, the phone woke me from sleep. It was my brother, calling me from Alaska to tell me how proud he was of me for joining the Army. Granted, Alaska is several hours behind Virginia, and he clearly had been up all night, indulging in some adult beverages ... but I digress.

In the course of our conversation, he reminded me of something that happened when we were very young -- maybe 4 and 5 years old. We were out in the yard playing, and there was a large black crow sitting on a low branch of a tree in our yard. I walked over and picked up the crow and held it. My brother is fascinated by this occurrence, and this morning, while half-awake, I told him, "I did it because I didn't know that I couldn't do it."

Ever since I said those words, that realization has been bouncing around my head. I do things because it simply does not occur to me that I cannot do them. I think this has been a constant theme in my life: in all endeavors, I go in with the idea that I can do anything I choose. Determined? Yes. Stubborn? Naturally!

It is with these thoughts that I am staring down five days and a wake-up until I depart my home for active duty as part of the Army Nurse Corps. At the tender age of 38, I am being commissioned as a 2LT. The entire process, from initial recruiter contact to the day I report for duty, will have taken the better part of 16 months. Never in my life have I worked this hard for a job! (Yes, I know ... it's not a job, it's an adventure!). At this time, the military is reflecting what is happening in the civilian sector: lack of jobs, and more applicants that positions. From what I have heard, there were approximately 400 applicants for active duty, with approximately 50 selected. Nationwide. That is astonishing to me! But it makes it even more of an honor to be selected to serve.

I grew up overseas as a military brat. When I was 17 years old and preparing to graduate from high school, my stepfather (now a retired Army officer) suggested, "You should consider joining the military." My immediate, knee-jerk response: "I will never join the *&^%$#! military." I felt that I'd "done my time" as a family member. But now, all these years later, I wanted -- yearned! -- to do just that: join the military. I wanted to return to a world that I knew and missed, as well as take care of people serving our country. It became very important to me, and became my focus over the last 16 months.

My progression into the Army Nurse Corps, and nursing in general, has certainly not followed a straight line ... I spent a decade as a graphic designer/desktop publisher; while working in that role, I went to a local community college and became an EMT-B, then an EMT-P (Paramedic). At some point, as I was driving the daily 60+ miles to my design job, I had an epiphany that I needed to stop what I was doing and go into healthcare. With the support of my very understanding husband, I quit my lucrative design job and went to work as an ER tech in 2005 (a 50% pay cut ... ouch). I fell in love with the ER -- the fast pace, the varied complaints, the coworkers who got my weird, sometimes morbid sense of humor -- and decided that I wanted to be an ER nurse. Why? Because no one told me I couldn't, of course! So I went back to school and graduated with my ADN/RN in 2008. My job offer was something along the lines of "We are not letting you leave." Fine with me. At 36, I had officially changed careers, and I settled into my ER nursing role. But then the question arose: what next?

Next blog: Hurry Up and Wait!

Specializes in EMS, ED, Trauma, CEN, CPEN, TCRN.
How old is too old to join the military as a Nurse?

I had to get an age waiver at 38, but I think the upper limit is currently 41? 42? Somewhere around there.

You do have a BSN now, correct? I thought all army RN's had to have a BSN to be officers. My hubby was in Army Nurse Corp. We traveled all over Europe and lived several other places. Loved all of them, even Ft. Stewart. Good luck and many thanks and prayers go with you wherever you go.

Specializes in EMS, ED, Trauma, CEN, CPEN, TCRN.
You do have a BSN now, correct? I thought all army RN's had to have a BSN to be officers.

Yep! I went right back to school for an RN-BSN program about two months after I became an RN. I've had my BSN since June 2010. And thank you!! I am looking forward to Ft. Stewart -- it'll be somewhere new and different for me for sure! I grew up overseas (military brat), but I would love to return there too.

Are you stationed at Ft. Stewart? My husband and I both worked at Winn Army Hospital. It is very hot and muggy there. We call it "Ft. Swampy." We made many friends while in the military. My husband and I are both Army brats. My sister was born in Heidelberg, Germany. If you get stationed in Germany you will love it. Happy St. Patrick's Day. Blessings and safe travels from my husband and me.

Specializes in EMS, ED, Trauma, CEN, CPEN, TCRN.
Are you stationed at Ft. Stewart? My husband and I both worked at Winn Army Hospital. It is very hot and muggy there. We call it "Ft. Swampy." We made many friends while in the military. My husband and I are both Army brats. My sister was born in Heidelberg, Germany. If you get stationed in Germany you will love it. Happy St. Patrick's Day. Blessings and safe travels from my husband and me.

I'll be stationed there starting in June -- just in time for summer! :D LOL

I graduated from high school in Germany, and went to college there for a couple of years ... I miss it like crazy and will jump for joy if I end up at Landstuhl at some point!

Thanks. :)

We were stationed there too. My husband worked at Landstuhl. He also ran the nursing part of an active duty clinic at Kleber Kaserne. Oh the good old days. Been home since 1998. Took my niece there 2 years ago and she loved it. The year before she went to Paris and hated it. So I took her to Germany to have a really good experience and we did!

Safe travels.

Wow, what an inspiring story! At 30, I thought I was too old to attempt changing careers, my family is supportive except my girlfriend who ridicules me of not knowing what I want to do in life. Sometimes it causes doubt but after volunteering at hospitals (yeah I know it's not close to what nurses do), I'm certain that's what I want to do, care for people which I'm good at and at the end of the day feel like you actually accomplished something, no matter how screwed up the day went.

Thank you so much for your story and please do keep us updated!

Specializes in prehospital, ER, critical care transport.

Congrats and good luck, Lunah. I just pinned on Captain in the USAFR, and I got my start as a paramedic ten years ago. I hope that when you read this, you are feeling the pride and relief of having graduated your accession school.

Sam,

Don't think you are too old! After over twenty years as a nurse I went back to Law school at almost 40 years young. Now I own a legal seminar business and have traveled all over the country teaching nurses how to reduce their chances of being sued. My son and husband are both RN's. You are never to old to follow your dream. If your girlfriend or family is not supportive, to heck with them. Maybe you need a new girlfriend. LOL Good luck.

Specializes in PP, OR, med-surg,oncology, urodynamics.

Those words have been echoing in my head since I read this post a few days ago. You're so right, that's what help me through nursing school as a single mother of seven, after going through a divorce. However I almost forgot, and would have aborted the goals I'd set for myself. I just need to say Thank You for sharing.

You are welcome. I see my spelling mistake too. Never too old! Single mother of seven? Awesome. Willing to share anytime to help you.

Sam,

Don't think you are too old! After over twenty years as a nurse I went back to Law school at almost 40 years young. Now I own a legal seminar business and have traveled all over the country teaching nurses how to reduce their chances of being sued. My son and husband are both RN's. You are never to old to follow your dream. If your girlfriend or family is not supportive, to heck with them. Maybe you need a new girlfriend. LOL Good luck.

Wow, thanks and yeah maybe I do make some life changes, lol! My mom is a retired RN and of course she loves that someone in the family is following her.

Folks like the OP and you should continue sharing your stories, it really motivates people like me, believe it or not.