Yeah, Yeah, Patience...How long will that take?

  1. Good Morning Everyone!!

    Well, I just have to say (or whine really) I want to get on with the rest of my life!!! Ug! I'm so frustrated right now, I hate my job & I REALLY hate the commute. Ack! It took me over an hour and a half to get in to work today! Now, I know I'm not a very patient person, but jeeze! I hate knowing exactly what I want to do and how to do it and still have to wait 2 years to do it! It's so unbelieveably frustrating working on my prerequisites for 2 years (1 or 2 at a time) while working full time. The even more frustrating part is that I only have a few pre-req's to work on! I could technically have finished them all easily in 1 or 2 semesters if I could be a full time student. I keep telling myself..."it's almost over" but "only one more year" seems so very far away right now! I realize I don't have much of choice right now, I have a few bills I need to pay off before I quit my job but dammit all my clocks are tickin'! I also want to start having a family but I want to wait till I'm done with nursing school to start that so that'll be at least 3 years down the road! ugh!

    On the bright side! I'm excited about my CNA course this semester! I feel like I'm at least finally getting somewhere! Human Development and Math doesn't exactly give me the impression that I'm off to bigger & better things! You know what I mean? My Med Dosage class was cool too...so I do feel like I'm at least getting somewhere! Does anyone else feel like this? I can't possibly be the only one! I guess the bottom line is that I just need to Breath in, Breath out...Take another deep breath and...Be Patient!

    Thanks for listening! :kiss

    ~Bean
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  2. 22 Comments

  3. by   Love-A-Nurse
    bean, ! i feel you are not alone. it took me from fall 2000 until spring 2002 to finish my pre-reqs and general courses and start on classes for bsn and i took a class in sring 1997 and spring 2000 and i was getting depressed because i was ready for the actual nursing classes.

    but here i am, starting rn clinical aug. 26, 2002! the main thing is, you are progressing day by day and you will have all of your pre-reqs and general courses out of the way so you may focus on just your nursing classes. you are trying to get caught up on your bills, this alone is a good reason to say, yes, i am getting somewhere.

    vent on us anytime, and as always, keep the faith!
  4. by   Love-A-Nurse
    (((((bean)))))!
  5. by   Hooligan
    Thanks Stephany!

    I know...I am getting somewhere and I need to occasionally remind myself of the reasons I'm waiting. If I don't pay off my bills, I can't afford nursing school...duh! And Congrats on starting your clinicals! Wow! Your Tuesdays are gonna be slammed! I saw your schedule on the other thread! Good luck this semester and keep us all posted!

    ~Bean
  6. by   Nursemelo
    oh i hear you hunny!
    i didn't know what i wanted to do with the rest of my life as graduation neared. i finaly decided on nursing. but i was to late to take my chemistry's at that point so i had to go back for them the following year. i had to take both 11 chem in order to take 12. so that's what i did when 11 was almost over i got really sick and was diagnosed with cancer i spent the next 8 months figthing and beating that and when back to scool in september for chem again. after being sick i had a new kinda passion for being a nurse and wanted to get started as soon as possible. so i convinced the school to let me skip 11 chem and just take 12 since i already got most of it and the university only looks at the mark for 12. so i got through that, applied to nursing school and completed my 1st year...it was super frustrating for me to watch girls that were only one year older than me that i had gone to school with for my entire life just one grade behing graduate while i was just in first year. i have i wonderful man :kiss and we want to get married and start a fammilly as soon as i'm done school and can get out there and start making some money too. and that unfortunately wont be for another 3 years at least. i want to be married live in a nice house and have a baby soooo bad. but i would be way to hard to do all that, financially especially while i'm in school. i say we start an emotional supprt group :chuckle
    Last edit by Nursemelo on Jul 24, '02
  7. by   Love-A-Nurse
    yes, i have my work cut out for myself. since i am on a pell grant and a scholarship, i had to take at least 12 hours. otherwise, i couldn't afford to go to school. keep me in prayer. i am going to give it all i have and with god's continued help, i will make it!

    i will pray for you as well!
  8. by   Love-A-Nurse
    by the way, i was determined not to have a friday class so i may study, rest, at least see the children, errands, etc., and be ready for 2-12 hours shifts on saturdays and sundays.
  9. by   Hooligan
    originally posted by lpn,future, rn
    by the way, i was determined not to have a friday class so i may study, rest, at least see the children, errands, etc., and be ready for 2-12 hours shifts on saturdays and sundays.
    good thinking stephany! ...i'll be praying for you every tuesday!

    nursebutterfly...i know what you mean about not knowing what to do with the rest of your life...that's what got me in this mess in the first place! i just wanted to graduate with a degree (ba in english) and get a job and start making some money. well now...i'm soooo glad i did that! at least you figured it out a little earlier than i did! congrats on beating the cancer! i can imagine how that would give you a whole new perspective on things! and who knows...maybe in 3-4 years we'll be here chatting about our patients and our babies!

    ~bean
  10. by   ashemson
    Bean - I am so with you on this one. I have 3 children, only 1 is in school, so I am also taking just 2 or 3 classes per semester. It feels like I will never get there. I only have 3 prereq's after this coming fall, so it's getting closer, but man...!
  11. by   TCW
    I totally agree with you all. I have only been working on my prereqs since August 2001 and I start clinicals next month, but man, do I know what you guys mean about putting your life on hold or at least feeling that way. I am so glad I found this thread because I was beginning to think that I was just some ungrateful person. I am thrilled that I have the opportunity to live out my dream finally, but it is hard when I think about marriage, having babies and a home.

    I knew I wanted to be a nurse my last year of college (rec'd my BA in 1994), but it would have meant tacking on at least an additional 2 years and I wanted to be done with it all. It took me a while to get up the courage to return to school, but I finally did it.

    I agree that an emotional support group would be a great thing. Good luck to everyone of you!

    Tonya
  12. by   Kaleigh
    Hey everybody!

    It does get better......I hope! I'm currently starting my second semester of my BSN but it was literal hell getting here. I started my pre-req's the summer BEFORE I graduated high school. I went to a community college for a year and a half...dosen't sound like long, huh? Well, my last semester, I took 27 HOURS!!! That was the worst semester of my entire colleger career! I had 27 hours because at my school, we are required to be CNA's before we can start the program. On top of the pre-req's, I was becoming a CNA. Anyway, I just wanted to let everyone know that things do get better. I thought I would never get to school, but I did and it's flying by. Best of luck to everybody!
  13. by   Hooligan
    Well thank God I'm not the only one!! This is quite an interesting turn of events for me though. I used to always be the student "who had so much potential, if only she'd apply herslef!" I never really tried all through highschool or even college. I was content with B's & C's and I even got a few D's mixed in there for a little variety. I was never excited about school and I never really cared. All I wanted was to get a job and get out of the house! It's actually kind of funny how you change as you get older. Being stuck in a crappy job really makes you re-evaluate you situation and re-think a lot of the choices you made.

    I actaully care about school...even the ones I would have previously blown off 'cause they don't matter. I am so anxious to prove to myself that I am smart and that I can do anything I put my mind to. The thing is...before this, I had nothing to work towards. I had nothing to look forward to other than a job. I didn't care about anything. Now I'm excited to be entering into a new career and into a field where can be a part of something that actually means something. Anyway...I'm rambling again...I'm just glad to see that there are others out there who are as excited and impatient as I am! Thanks for all your posts!

    ~Bean
  14. by   Love-A-Nurse
    originally posted by nursebutterfly
    oh i hear you hunny!
    i didn't know what i wanted to do with the rest of my life as graduation neared. i finaly decided on nursing. but i was to late to take my chemistry's at that point so i had to go back for them the following year. i had to take both 11 chem in order to take 12. so that's what i did when 11 was almost over i got really sick and was diagnosed with cancer i spent the next 8 months figthing and beating that and when back to scool in september for chem again. after being sick i had a new kinda passion for being a nurse and wanted to get started as soon as possible. so i convinced the school to let me skip 11 chem and just take 12 since i already got most of it and the university only looks at the mark for 12. so i got through that, applied to nursing school and completed my 1st year...it was super frustrating for me to watch girls that were only one year older than me that i had gone to school with for my entire life just one grade behing graduate while i was just in first year. i have i wonderful man :kiss and we want to get married and start a fammilly as soon as i'm done school and can get out there and start making some money too. and that unfortunately wont be for another 3 years at least. i want to be married live in a nice house and have a baby soooo bad. but i would be way to hard to do all that, financially especially while i'm in school. i say we start an emotional supprt group :chuckle
    ! you are an inspiration and i do wish you all the best!

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