I hope you take into consideration what Daytonite has said. She gave some extremely great points. Nursing school is as much of a "school" as it is self-teaching. Last semester was my first, and, although I didn't have to verbalize what I had to do or was doing, I had to make sure I knew what I was doing. This required practice, practice, and more practice. I've never had any type of experience in the hospital or with this type of thing before, so it was up to me to make sure I taught myself as well as took my time to listen, and do whatever I had to do to get it right. The first time I did hand washing, I didn't do it right. The clinical instructors bathed my hands in this neon orange "goo" that glowed in the blacklight they used to see if I did it right. I missed my wrists. Therefore, I had to go back, put more goo on and do it all over again. You must take things in stride. You won't be perfect. No one will be; no matter how much experience they have, you are all in the same boat.
I had this very strict, demanding, and blunt clinical instructor who told us straight out what we were doing and if we kept doing it, we would fail. She intimidated the bee-geesus out of me! However, it is because of her that I learned things the right way. You must think of yourself, of course, but you also have to think about the patients. If you don't learn to do something right, you will, more than likely, cause them harm. Sometimes it is those professors--who hurt your feelings, make you feel stupid--who will help you succeed. There's always a silver lining. Always.
Nursing school will naturally move fast. There is overwhelming amounts of information that we need to learn, prepare for, and fine tune. Try to relax. I know it's easier said than done, but I've learned from personal experience that if you stress out, you wind up hurting your concentration and blocking things out that are vital for your learning. Learn to manage your time. Go, whenever you have a free minute, to the library, the lab tech (who should have videos for nursing students readily available; I know in my school, they do) your professor, here, and any type of resource available to you that can help you out. In fact, in this forum, I believe there's a sticky that has videos on how to do various things. Use it. It is very helpful. Try to have fun in class. It's not that hard, really. The things you're learning are fascinating and helpful. Don't let stress and your own natural insecurities to let you down. Insecurities are good; overconfidence often gets you into trouble. :wink2: I hope you enjoy your experience and to read later that you're doing great. Good luck and God bless!!!