I really need some advice right now. I find myself in a situation where the clinical instructor appears to have a strong hate out on me and makes it pretty obvious even in front of others, and it sounds like that person may have failed good student(s) in the past. I feel pretty hopeless right now and I feel like no matter what I do, it might be just pointless, but on the other hand, I do want to become a RN, but it's so difficult when you feel like even if you work so hard and may deserve to pass with any other instructors but not with this one, so any advice would be much appreciated, especially from people who went through the similar experience or know someone who did. Thanks everyone.
Find something you have in common and talk about that.
What are some of the things that are happening with this instructor where they are being harder on you then the others? Each clinical instructor may have different expectations and it's normal for those expectations to change as you get closer to finishing your program. Do you know what their expectations of you are during clinical?
I remember having one particular clinical instructor that was known for being the hardest/meanest clinical instructor. I was so nervous when I found out I would be with her. Once I knew exactly what she expected (such as specific information about meds before administration), I made sure I was always prepared with that information. She pushed us, but in good ways. If we already knew the answer to her first question, she would keep going, making the questions harder. It made us think more and really work on our critical thinking. At the end of the clinicals, she used all of those moments to show us how we had grown during our clinical rotation. It ended up being my favorite clinical rotation.
Clinical instructors aren't necessarily warm and fuzzy- is it possible that you're just interpreting her wrong? I had one with same rep- now that I've graduated, we're actually friends, meet up for coffee, etc. Seaofclouds21 is right thoug, ask specifically what she wants to see from you. Ask for feedback, it allows you to know exactly what to improve on. Most clinical instructors feel that your performance is a direct reflection of them, so they push for excellence.
Lie low, document everything. If compromised go to the dean and request another instructor.
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