I am sorry that this happened to your client, and of course it sucks to be you at that moment. As I was reading your post and got to the point where you said " I finished my perri care and allowed my client to walk to her chair."
I totally saw her rolling onto the ground before I read anything else you posted. It's a blessings that she didn't get hurt. And probably one of the safest accidents in a learning experience you will have as you continue in school. I say that because, now since you've been the victim of an OOPs, you will be on high alert all the time, and checking for safety dealing with everything. I know it feels like a black stain on your record, but try to imagine it a little differently. Clearly, you were predestined to be the student nurse caring for that specific patient, at that specific time. From the first day you sat in nursing school, this event was already assigned to happen to you. Why? #1 Because you can handle the backlash from the incident ( what doesn't kill you makes you stronger-shout out to KeLLY Clarkston), which is going to make you a stronger student. #2 The universes assessment to see how you choose to respond to what happened. I say the universe because not everyone believes in God but usually they believe is something. However I do! Have you chosen the best response? So far I see you calling yourself , STUPID. We both know that's not the case. So let's use embarrassed. And it's o.k that you are embarrassed, you should be, it's a normal human feeling when something like this happens. It was a mistake in your judgement that had minor consequences. We both know that it could have had huge Major consequences. I see that as a student, just like you, we get excited when we are in the clinical setting. We have our nursing uniforms on with the nice school patch on the arm of our scrubs
or wherever, the patients and Nurses see that we are in the building and ready to work. And we take pride in what we are doing, but sometimes that 15 seconds creeps around where we have a moment of complacency and BOOM
, that's it. But guess what? Your patient is unscathed, you lived through this event, and you didn't kill anybody or get kicked out of the program. You are not a victim
of this incident, you are a survivor
of possibly one of the worst clinical days this semester. Don't accept this as a black stain on your record. No it can not be erased out of the minds of your instructors, and yeah you have a cloudy past with them. But everything you do thats correct from this point forward can rebuild what you seem to think is fractured. And mistakes happen, do your best to be conscious of your surroundings so they will come far and few in between. Keep your head up, nursing school is not a cake walk or for the faint of heart. It's Hard. I have ten weeks left myself, I know. And as far as your instructors go, they take what we do as students and see it as a reflection of themselves, because they are teaching us. So of course they get ****** when we mess up. However at the end of the day I doubt that they are harboring personal feelings of hatred towards you. They want you to succeed. Trust and believe if they were gunning for you, you would be long gone. So strap your big girl pants back on, and go to clinicals next time ready to experience yet another day of being a student nurse. GOOD LUCK