Oh God, Yes! You sound just like me! I think those things also. I have 3 children, but mine are 16, 14, and 7, so they are not exactly little anymore.
I get down on myself alot. Here I am going into the nursing program and thinking things like, I'll never make it, it is going to be too hard. Even if I do make it, I probably won't pass boards and get my license, I'll never have a good job, and we need the money sooo bad. And if I do get a good job, I'll probably be hit by a 18-wheeler and die! All this hard work and worry will be for NOTHING!
I have been in school for a year and a semester, and have 2 years to go, it feels like I will NEVER finish. I am scared, excited, and anxious all at the same time. Sometimes I wish the summer would slow down so I don't have to start in the nursing program so soon, other times I wish the summer would speed up so I can get in the middle of things to know for sure if I am even cut out to be a nurse!
I am going NUTS!
I know exactly how you feel, so don't worry, you are not alone.
I'm geussing that EVERYONE feels these same things the summer before clinicals.
everyone here is so supportive!
I'll say a little prayer for both of us,