So last week I was scolded for not being prepared enough for my pt, this week I prepared for hours and felt confident that I would be spot on when asked any questions. Once again every single thing I said or did was wrong or not good enough. I honestly did my best and was still tore apart and any confidence I had was gone within the first 5min of clinical. At the end of every clinical we have to write a journal about how our week went, I'm half tempted in a nice not nasty way to let this teacher know that she is the 1st teacher I have ever had tell me to hurry up while giving meds. She did it to me today in front of my pt and her daughter and I can't focus when she does this to me. Even when I'm getting my meds out of the accudose machine she stands beside me and says come on hurry up. She has me flustered and to the point that I feel like I have to answer her questions in a split second or fear that she will yell at me and then I blank out and say the first thing that comes to my mind without even thinking It just comes out. I can't stop it this fear just comes over me and I try so hard to think about what she is asking me but I can see her staring at me impatiently waiting for and answer. Should I politely bring this up or am I fighting a losing battle?
Apr 3, '13
by llg, BSN, MSN, PhD Guide
It's fine to talk about your struggles with efficiency and your struggles to keep a clear head while under pressure -- as long as you discuss it in a way that reflects that you view these events as part of a normal learning process. Don't make yourself sound weak and pitiful -- and don't make it sound like you blame the instructor for "making" you feel a certain way and "causing" your mistakes. Own your feelings of nervousness and and your mistakes and discuss them in a constructive manner that will lead you towards improvement and growth and you will be fine. However, you could dig a deeper hole for yourself if you make yourself sound too pitiful or blame the instructor for your mistakes.
Last edit by llg on Apr 3, '13