Hello, I'm feeling pretty stuck right now and would like some feedback on what others have felt. When I applied to nursing school
, I wasn't really sure what I wanted to do as a career so I applied. I ended up getting in on my first try(rarely happens in my area apparently), and decided that that was fate pushing me in that direction. I ended up really enjoying my first year but in between first and second my dad passed suddenly. I decided to continue with the program without taking any time off and am now halfway through my second semester of my second year. However, I have began to realize I don't have that passion that so many people seem to have for nursing. I like the patient interaction but hate the schooling side of it. I feel like nursing is important and needs to be done and therefore I should stay. But my dad was always a proponent of doing a job you enjoy since you will be spending so much time in your life doing it. So that mentality is pulling me away, thinking I should drop out. My real passion is animals, painting and writing but it's it's not a stable job and therefore didn't go Tag route career-wise. Also, I've always been responsible. I'm 21 have never some drugs, don't drink, go to bed at 10 pm, exercise, don't break any rules. I feel like that side of me pushed me to continue to go through school instead of take time off.
TL;DR, I think I might be going through a quarter life crisis, halfway through my RN degree with no passion for nursing. I enjoy it but am not in love with it.
My question for those who have stuck through is: should I push on with nursing until I graduate hoping these feelings pass, take a year off to try and take some time to myself, or drop out completely and find a new path?
I graduate in December so I'm about halfway through my RN. I had 4 best friends. Last semester one went to graduate school out of state, two got married, and one committed suicide. My whole world changed in the course of about two months. I tell you this so that you know I have an idea about what you're going through.
I have only three comments, no answer.
1. You are being a fool to say in one moment "I'm putting on a mask" and then point to everyone else's passion as though that's valid evidence that they have something you don't. Can you not see the irony of assuming you're the only one?
2. You don't have to love all of it. What do you love? Is there a little niche you can carve out of the massive profession that you will like?
3. This is last but certainly not least. Don't believe the lie that the goal is to find your passion and then you will go into work everyday with a light heart and a smile on your face. It is a bold faced lie. Passion is fleeting and if you chase it you'll end up lost and lonely. Find something you get purpose out of and then spend hours and hours practicing your craft until it flows out of you and then ride the waves of passion as they come and go.
If you want to know more about what I'm saying I can share a few people with you who've inspired me that you can listen to.
Last edit by NavyNurseCandidate on Feb 27
: Reason: Grammar/style