Just really blue this week

  1. Well technically it started on Sunday but who's counting. (lol)

    Woke up Sunday with a facial rash figured nothing of it probably allergy or stress related but it hurt and was really red and irritated. I went to my Dr. on Monday thinking he could give me a topical Rx cream, like I had prior when I had skin issues. He said he thought I might have a skin condition and sent me to the hospital for testing. I go in for a complete workup and he calls two days later saying that my results were inconclusive and that I had a positive ANA, and he wanted to run more tests. I asked him what an positive ANA was and he said that it was a sign of Lupus but that it didn't necessarily mean that I had Lupus. He was sending me back to the hospital for an Anti-DNA, Anti-NS, etc. to rule it out. So I went yesterday and got more blood drawn and I have to see him next Friday to go over all my lab results. So between the stress of a possible Dx., the stresses of not knowing, school, exams, clinical, and just normal life stressors I seem to be nearing a nervous breakdown this week. It didn't help that this AM 98% of the class failed the first Med-Surg exam, I got a 60% after non-stop studying.

    It has really made me start to question if I'm cut out for this. I just don't seem to have the passion that my fellow classmates have and am left wondering if it is because I'm in a depressed state or if it's that I just have too much going on around me.
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  3. by   Imafloat
    You are cut out for this. I was diagnosed with an autoimmune condition right before I started prenursing. I have been fine through everything. It can be done and you are capable. One of our professors has lupus and she keeps up with everything. The first month of school I was so sure I was not smart enough, I couldn't believe that I had put myself in that situation. Here I am 6 weeks from being done.

    Feel free to pmail me if you would like to talk further.
  4. by   vamedic4
    Hi AllieRat,

    First of all, try to relax..you've had a rough couple of days. Nursing school is notoriously hard, but now you know how the exams are going to be (that's a plus), so perhaps now you have a better idea how to study.
    I truly hope you are feeling better, there's nothing like HAVING to study hard and feeling like absolute crap...been there, seen that movie....

    You're cut out for it...and you can do it. Never lose faith in yourself, it's too hard to get it back.

    Take care,

    vamedic4
  5. by   JentheRN05
    I have said this before, and I'll say it again. Go into every first test as if it is a practice test. SImply because it is. You don't know what any test will be like, or an instructors material test or otherwise until you get through the first test. After that - you may be fighting up hill for the grade. But this was my mentality throughout nursing school and I graduated with honors.
    Always remember - the first test in every single class - is simply a practice test for the rest of the class. Trust me it can be done - otherwise I wouldn't have the R.N. behind my name
    Didn't think I could do it either, but here I am
  6. by   LilSassyRN
    (((((((Allie)))))))!!!

    So sorry you have had a bad week..... hang in there.

    Don't sweat the first test of Med-surg tho.... our instructor told us that most of her students had the hardest time with that first test. She let us all know beforehand so it wasn't a big surprise. Yup.... I was just 1 point from a passing grade on it. The following tests were much easier and I did a whole lot better.

    It's scary when you are having health problems. Sometimes you just have to live one day at a time..... relax and rest when you can and try to destress. You can do it, keep that goal in mind and you will do it .

    Hugs!
    Sassy
  7. by   abbythetabby
    Quote from AllieRat
    Well technically it started on Sunday but who's counting. (lol)

    Woke up Sunday with a facial rash figured nothing of it probably allergy or stress related but it hurt and was really red and irritated. I went to my Dr. on Monday thinking he could give me a topical Rx cream, like I had prior when I had skin issues. He said he thought I might have a skin condition and sent me to the hospital for testing. I go in for a complete workup and he calls two days later saying that my results were inconclusive and that I had a positive ANA, and he wanted to run more tests. I asked him what an positive ANA was and he said that it was a sign of Lupus but that it didn't necessarily mean that I had Lupus. He was sending me back to the hospital for an Anti-DNA, Anti-NS, etc. to rule it out.
    Allie,

    I actually went through the exact same thing several years ago. I saw several specialists and none of them ever found the cause of my positive test results. Once the stress in my life subsided, the symptoms went away and haven't returned since. I hope this happens for you too.

    Nursing school is can be very stressful. What you're going though does NOT mean you aren't cut out to be a nurse. It does mean you have to find an effective outlet for venting that stress. Posting here is a good start. I hope it's been theraputic. Think about how you blew off stress before nursing school. Make time to do those things again.
  8. by   RN1263
    i feel for you! i have had relapsing-remitting M.S. for a long time and since it is also an autoimmune disease. i can say that "IF" you have lupus it may be surfacing now, because you are so stressed. sometimes autoimmune diseases rear their ugly head in times of high stress for whatever reason....
    my M.S. symptoms surfaced for the first time 4 days before i got married....

    BUT, don't lose hope even if you do have it, because i have a friend who has lupus and not only did she make it through nursing school, but she's been working in a hospital setting for about 3 yrs. now!

    i also have NOT been feeling well lately (3rd sem. of ADN) and i'm praying i don't have an impending attack hanging over my head! ...nursing school IS hard for me physically and mentally....it just is, but i keep plugging along....

    so, if you didn't do well on your first test, go to your instructor and ask if you should be doing something different w/ your studying??? especially since you studied for a long time to prepare for that test, but try not to dwell on the past test after that..... at least that's my 2 cents. it won't do any good for your health...
  9. by   scaredofshots
    I will pray for you sounds like you are having a hard time with everything going on. Have you spoke with your instructors yet? They may be able to help. Also get a good NCLEX book one that has the subjects grouped together like a section on PEDS, a section of just mental health etc. This way you can practice taking tests and study all in the same time. This has really helped me in school. GOOD LUCK. and God Bless...

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