in a rut.

[lauriepat, ASN, RN]

Hi everyone,

looking for some words of wisdom, lol

I have been an lpn for almost 3 years, currently in RN school.

It has been a heck of a ride.

I was accepted into the program last july, to start in august and graduate this may.

However, I thought I could work 30 hours a week while doing so.

Not quite, it ended up with me being under an insane amount of stress, my boyfriend didn't understand, ended up screaming at him, my mom, anyone else 90% of the time.

ultimately ended up balling my eyes out with one of my teachers and had to drop the program.

It was so, so hard for me to accept that..however I picked myself up, reapplied, and I am working every other weekend, and doing excellent in class/clinical, and now I am vice president of my class. I will graduate this December.

However the beginning of this semester has been horrible, ended up moving back home with my parents, issues with my boyfriend..my life has been turned upside down, however school is not reflecting that.

I feel like crap. Not making the money I used to because I'm not working a lot, I still hold a lot of regret that I could have been a working RN by the end of this summer.

I know, it won't matter 5 years down the road

But I find myself wishing it was a year from now so I can just work and love my job and get my own place and be AWAY from everybody.

I am in a rut, I want to freaking graduate.

[bluescrubs16]

No words of wisdom - just encouragement! Sounds like you have gone through a lot but you are still surviving and pushing towards your goal of becoming an RN! That speaks volumes about your character. December will be here before you know it. Hang in there!!! :)

[RunBabyRN]

Hugs! I can understand kicking yourself for not pushing through the first time, but try not to dwell on what you can't change. Focus your energy on smoothing things out that are currently happening in your life (because lord knows we can't handle additional life stress while in nursing school- I've had my share, too), and push forward. You're getting there! Remember that the most rewarding things in life are generally the ones we worked hardest for. You've got this!! Also remember that EVERYONE is this stressed out. We're all fried. We all have a lot on our plates. It CAN be done, and YOU WILL be one of the success stories. Stay strong!!

[lauriepat, ASN, RN]

Thank you for all the kind reponses :)

I can push through it and will.