I can completely relate to your situation. I just graduated from an ABSN this past May and felt exactly the same way. I found nursing "theory" along with nursing "diagnoses" absurd and bizarre concepts, which are not based in reality. Esoteric is a perfect word for it. They use 15 words to describe something that could be described in five. They create their own nursing terminology and phrasing, which to me, just sounds like bad English. By the end of the second semester, I realized that it wasn't me - I just think logically and much of nursing education seems to ignore logic. I think it stems from an inferiority complex that nurses have. For years, our culture has seen them as inferior to physicians and in response they have created a world for themselves in academia where they can demand respect. The problem is that they're over-thinking it. They are trying to create philosophies and theories when they aren't needed. They make simple concepts confusing and convoluted. It took me months to understand what the hell a nursing diagnosis even was..Why make it so complicated?
Don't get me wrong, nursing itself is important and difficult work and requires great intelligence to do well. I mean no disrespect to nurses, and technically, I am one too. But, I encountered a lot of nursing instructors who I did not feel had the right to be teaching because of their absolute inability to be articulate or to write a clear/fair exam. I argued dozens of test questions and wrote way too many letters in protest. I barely made it through my program because it was so emotionally exhausting. Not because I couldn't do the academic work (I graduated w/ a 3.84, magna cum laude) and not because I couldn't do the clinical work (I worked hard and passed all my clinicals without a problem). The worst part was dealing with the incompetence. I did have a few good teachers, and a couple great ones, but most of them were terrible lecturers and wrote exams which did NOT reflect the material. I would re-listen to lectures, read all the textbooks and handouts and still see material on the test that was completely foreign, badly worded, or worse, totally wrong!!
I made it through it because I want to be a nurse midwife. I knew becoming an RN first was the only way to reach my dream. I worked really hard, fought my battles when I had the energy and tried to let the injustice slide when I could - just to save my energy. It's BS, but I think this is just how it is. I went to a program which is highly regarded in NYS - I've had many nurses say how impressed they were that I attended that program…which always baffled me because I thought they were a pretty big mess. I'm planning on starting midwifery school soon and do not plan to ever work as a nurse. If you really want to become an NP and know that it's work you'll enjoy and could tolerate a year of working as a nurse (or find a masters program that does not require nursing experience first), then I'd encourage you to grin and bear it. It's rough, but it does go by quickly. If however, you're not 100% sure about being an NP, I'd warn you that nursing school
does not necessarily get better, and floor nursing can be really rough. Most of my classmates are miserable in their nursing jobs
. Either way, you're not alone in your experience. The most important thing is to look at your overall goal. If becoming an NP is important to you, than don't let the bs of nursing school discourage you. It was one of the hardest years of my life, but I made it, passed the NCLEX and am now applying to midwifery school. I'm glad I didn't let their bad teaching scare me away. Good luck!