So I have been having some suicidal thoughts with clinical. I have been informed by my instructor that I received an F for the midterm. I have an 85% in the course. However, when I asked why I was failing she said that I was lacking in sufficient health teaching, but other wise was doing a good job. So I'm lacking in one area, bust my ass in clinical and nothing is shown for it. I have received little positive comment on performance, but when I told a few others in my clinical group about, they said they were shocked and confused. I cannot fail clinical. I don't have money for winter classes.
Compounding the problem is that tomorrow evening is my last night on the unit and I am nervous as hell. Its driving me crazy and is making me depressed 24/7, and I can't sleep well.
I don't know what to do. I'm scared, like a lot. My mom threatened to cut me off financially and socially, and without her I cannot afford school period. I'm really scared and upset. I'm a man and I don't like OB so that makes it worse I suppose.