i'm 3rd semester in 2 year program and i hate...i mean, despise
going to clinical. i absolutely dread it. bostonjenn
, i thought someone had jumped into my body just now while i was studying hematology and posted all my exact thoughts under your name
: :yeahthat: totally! i feel like the things i'm doing can be done by...well, a robot
, i guess. oooh...i took someone's vitals (it's even more rewarding when a machine or robot
does it all for you)...and, oh, wow...i changed somebody's bed while they were in the bathroom (just like a real housekeeper!)...and check it out: i put this funky-looking thing in my ears (just like the one i had when i was a kid) and listened to some funny noises in a couple different places:smiley_aa ...& in a couple hours, i get to cut up somebody's meat and make small talk with them while they eat (just like when i used to babysit!)...and just before bedtime, i get to look at a list of pills, pop them out of their package....all by myself
...put them in somebody's hand & watch them swallow them! i'm a...
? i'm not saying i'm above any of these tasks...i just want to feel the way a nurse is supposed to feel.
i always feel like i'm doing...okay
...but that if another student was here, she'd/he'd be doing more thorough assessments, or understand my pt's condition better, or know exactly why they're receiving each and every medication they're getting.
and my grades are fine, too. we're pass/fail for clinical now, but last semester, i even got an a...felt completely undeserving. this year, i finally got the guts to confide in my instructor & tell her how i feel (basically word for word what jenn said) and she told me that a lot of being a nurse is being eyes and ears:redlight: . knowing the hob should be up, knowing if someone's loc is changing, knowing what looks off in an assessment, knowing what vs to check if, say, pt says he's short of breath, etc. it made me feel a little better...this instructor is not known to coddle.
my biggest hang-up with clinical is initial pt assessments
. every day as i'm walking from my car to the hospital, i mentally picture myself running at full speed, screaming, and just charging
into my pts room
, getting my vitals, doing a quick head to toe, seeing if they need anything, then getting out! it's my most dreaded part of clinical and i just want to get it over with asap. and i don't mind sitting with my pts or talking with them, or giving baths, etc...i just loathe initial assessments
. i feel like i don't know what i'm doing. and i always forget at least 2-3 things to check before i leave the room...and i have to go back in, explain to the pt that even though i told them i could leave them alone for awhile to rest, that now i have to "quick" check their pedal pulses, or skin turgor, or lower extremity strength.
you know what i would :heartbeat ? one or two days to just shadow a nurse. watch everything she/he does...what assessments they do and why, etc.
i have to believe that once i become a
, and am employed at a certain place for awhile, i'll be much more comfortable with these things. if not...god help us all
! this was a bit of a rant...thanks for reading - i'm just so excited that other people feel the same way that i do :icon_hug: (sniff, little tear). everyone i'm in school with just looooves going to clinical. not this girl.