I hate nursing school (and it is not because it is hard) - page 8

I am in one of the top nursing schools in the country, and, coming from the interesting pre-reqs like chemistry and A&P, to the nursing model, which, I am sorry to say, is devoid of any real medical... Read More

  1. by   baleen
    After completing nursing school, and a capstone in an ICU, I have realized much about my above thoughts. For anyone still interested in my little journey, ill share some of them.

    First, I should not have gone to nursing school. It was never going to be enough, and it was always going to be very annoying to me. Its the kind of person I am. I fought against it. Why? Fear. If I am to be honest, becoming sober after years of feeling out of control, and feeling like I would never live up to my own expectations for myself, left me scared of becoming another homeless statistic. Once sober, I found that I could really do anything again. I could focus, and I could be the best in most of my classes. I enjoy learning, but I hate learning "nursing". I had to find that out the hard way. I love learning about nature. Be it the human body or any other form that has taken trial and error and chaos and (isnt it the question that ultimately drives...why at all?) sits here in our midst, makes us up, and is infinitely beautiful and wondrous. Nursing abdicates too much of that end of things, and sits on the human aspect. The almost "human first", nearly Christian way of it. Perhaps that is why there are so many christians in my classes. But...I digress.

    It was not a good decision to go to nursing school. Perhaps when I begin work, and can work 2 days a week and pursue other things that make me happy, my tune will change somewhat. But I fooled myself for so long. I tried to tell myself that this thing I was doing out of fear was right for me, and the other things I really wanted (Journalism....Medical School) were not.

    I did not listen to those that said follow your heart. Though I wanted to. I did listen to those that said stick around. Keep at it. My first nursing school teachers told me to go to medical school. Nothing anyone could have said would have swayed me.

    If there is anything I could tell anyone....its that, it is true. Follow what you want, is true. Everything else you justify for money, or stability, or ...or...or...you name the fear, it will drive you if you cant fight it off.

    Its not too late for me, though I do feel old for somethings....I suppose it does not have to be so.

    Follow what we want...and dont make excuses. I can do great things....if I have the courage. I think many others can too.
  2. by   Hope2banurse1
    Quote from la_chica_suerte85
    That is what you are supposed to be able to do. A lot of nursing is striking out on your own and learning disease processes and learning best practices. When you specialize, you become so intimate in your knowledge with the subject matter of your chosen specialty that you can ask the MD exactly what you need for your patient based on excellent assessment and critical thinking skills. That is, at least for me, where the intellectual rush of nursing comes in to play. And, when you have to fill in the holes the MD left behind when talking to the patient (excluding matters requiring consent) and you are doing your discharge teaching and you can teach the patient so well that they can really get a hold of their disease process, that's the pinnacle of the nursing model.

    I know it doesn't seem super hard and right now the schooling part is boring. I am having this issue, too. I feel like a lot of the As I and many in my cohort got were handed to us. It feels shameful. But, this whole time I've been studying on my own and doing my own research on things. I'm 30 and I don't need an instructor to teach me anything in the classroom - I need them in clinical. So, I've been getting my own work experience and have been lucky enough to be on a unit of my chosen specialty where my nurses nurture my student side and we can discuss high level disease processes and treatment protocols. It's freaking amazing.

    And, yet, through it all, I'm still considering PA school later down the road. But, for now, I am extremely satisfied and am hopeful for what I can do as an RN and how expansive my medical and nursing knowledge is going to become, especially once I get on the job. Like they say, you learn everything once you get on the job.

    There is no way nursing school can really prepare us to go into the workforce unless we go back to hospital-based diploma nursing (and, even then, the litigious nature of medical liability would still hold us back from getting "real" experience).

    Something about your comments gave me chills! It's like I could feel the passion and excitement from your words. Your comment just gave me a little bit more reassurance this is what I wanna do. I'm hoping to get into a nursing program in the fall. Good luck to you. I wish somehow I knew you lol.
  3. by   acharland
    OOOps... I posted this way after I saw it is now a whole year later. But I'll leave it here just keep in mind I thought your original post was recent. BTW... Congrats on all your personal revelations. After reading your recent update, I feel like this might be the same path I'm heading. However, I am taking the la_chiqha_serte85's quote to heart and ensuring I get into a field/specialty that will nurse my passions... Good luck to you and your path. Keep me up to date!

    Hello, I'm totally new here but I am starting down a Nursing path because of my passion for healing others. Sounds to me that you are like me, you like to dive deep down and discover the how's and the why's and apply your knowledge which, by the sounds of it, you're not getting to do. So perhaps switching to a field that will allow that might be better suited to you. ALSO, wouldn't a Nurse Practitioner field allow you to apply your indepth knowledge? Perhaps once you get passed basic nursing elements,, you might be a little bit more fulfilled. I don't want to be a Nurse, despite studying and getting my RN. I mean my END GOAL, is Nurse practitioner, although i'm sure the basics of nursing practice are very important and will serve as an excellent foundation while earning my masters, I don't want to stop at the BSN level. So maybe consider persevering to the point where you can be challenged with deeper knowledge as you seem to strive for. Best of luck!
    Last edit by acharland on Feb 13
  4. by   rileowski
    I relate to you so much! I always wanted to go to med school but recently got accepted into nursing school, and I think I may have to decline that acceptance and work on getting my prereqs for med school done instead. I wanted to be a doctor because not only do I love helping people, but that I love science. But I can tell I will be disappointed by the lack of detail nursing school will go into for a science nerd like me. I want to know all about human anatomy and physiology. I want to know the intricate details of how drugs work and human pathology. I am taking pathophysiology now at a community college by a nursing instructor. She is really sweet and nice, but when it comes down to the details of certain topics she can only say "I don't know. I'm a nurse, not a doctor." It kills me when she says that because I really wanted to be a kick ass nurse, but I know in my heart the only way I can learn all the stuff I want is to go into medicine. I am glad I almost went into nursing though because I learned so much about the nursing profession and how difficult it can be. Nurses are badasses and I will be relying on them all the time when I'm a new intern to make sure I don't screw up, but nursing is just not my path. Thanks for sharing your journey though. I'm sorry you had to learn the hard way, but at least your mistakes helped another person from making those same mistakes.
  5. by   baleen
    Quote from rileowski
    I relate to you so much! I always wanted to go to med school but recently got accepted into nursing school, and I think I may have to decline that acceptance and work on getting my prereqs for med school done instead. I wanted to be a doctor because not only do I love helping people, but that I love science. But I can tell I will be disappointed by the lack of detail nursing school will go into for a science nerd like me. I want to know all about human anatomy and physiology. I want to know the intricate details of how drugs work and human pathology. I am taking pathophysiology now at a community college by a nursing instructor. She is really sweet and nice, but when it comes down to the details of certain topics she can only say "I don't know. I'm a nurse, not a doctor." It kills me when she says that because I really wanted to be a kick ass nurse, but I know in my heart the only way I can learn all the stuff I want is to go into medicine. I am glad I almost went into nursing though because I learned so much about the nursing profession and how difficult it can be. Nurses are badasses and I will be relying on them all the time when I'm a new intern to make sure I don't screw up, but nursing is just not my path. Thanks for sharing your journey though. I'm sorry you had to learn the hard way, but at least your mistakes helped another person from making those same mistakes.
    I have to say, at every turn, the truly curious are stymied by a culture in nursing that eschews the really deeper questions. If that, "I don't know. Im a nurse, not a doctor" mentality bothered you early, it will never get better in my experience, and I think it's good that you can hear your own reaction to that kind of thing. I am glad that you found my post useful.

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