The unfortuante jhust happened to me this past monday. A day I will never forget. I failed my medication administraiton demo. And it wasn't like I didn't konw what I was doing, I made stupid mistakes. I did all the steps perfectly when I was practicing weeks before. I even LEARNED not memorized the reasons why you would give this type of med or where it is supposed top be adm. When it came down to it I freaked. I was unsuccessful. Now I am suppose to repeat nursing therapeutics mgmt. and prct. next sem. Which fortunately I am not kicked out of the program, but I am placed under the new curriculum. God willing, I will be taking the therapeutics/clinical, with pharm, nursing of older adults, and some other course that our program added.
I feel like a part of me was stolen. I can't tell my father because he wouldn't understand. My father unfortunately, never got the opportunity to finish school. He was the one that pushed me to go into nursing. I have no problem going to school for it, but more and more I go through wit it I find myself lost and unhappy. My grades are good but am barely passing therapeutics. I want to become a nurse for my dad and b/c I want to keep a promise I made my grandfather. I know nursing is a career that is so rewarding. It is a great career if you want to start a family, with its flexibilty, salary, and other perks. There is always room to grow and learn. But I have always wanted to be involved in the media. I always thought that maybe after nursing school
I can go back to school to pursue a broadcast/journalism degree. I'm still young, why not. Then I ask myself Will still have the drive to go back.
I cannot tell my dad that I will be graduating six months later than my anticipated graduation date. He will be ashamed of me and see me as a complete idiot. My father is the last person in the world I would want to think of me that way. On the otherh and, I pray and ask God for help. I ask him to give me strength and a clear mind to help me understand the material. I've also thought that this current situation is perhaps God's way form e to make sure I can take care of home before I go into this demanding program. My father is a single parent. He works two jobs trying to make ends meet. I have tow younger siblings, one who is getting ready to go to high school. My paternal grandmother also lives with us, she is a blessing. I work and go to school and help my father care for my siblings and my grandmother. I see how my father can't seem to handle everything by himself, he has been easily forgetful. One factor are the tragedies that he has experienced, he lost his father in 95 at the age of 65, then a a couple years later his brother to suicide, and that same year an ugly separation with my mother.
I know why my father want to graduate with a degree in nursing. He does not want me to be in the same position he is in. He wants me to be able to live a better life and be able to provide the same for my own children in the future. May this time off will allow me to help get my father rebuild mentally and spiritually. But I just don't know where to start, and how I can get over my setback.
Oct 21, '06
Hi ! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
My suggestion is to continue with nursing school
, and finish.
Do this for yourself. Every field that we try to learn often has
difficult areas for us. After you finish nursing, you can work and
pursue your dream of a career in media.
Here is a link for you---this nurse was the first health reporter
in our area--she has since gone on to an outstanding career.
re:Cathy ray. http://www.ktnv.com/global/Story.asp?s=5527013
Best wishes to you in all you do. Your Dad will be very proud of you.
Last edit by jahra on Oct 21, '06