yep...gave up excelsior for a university 2 year bsn. program...i feel as though a weight has been lifted!
no worries about whether or not my RN diploma will be kept from me by a scrutinizing ce ("oops, you touched that glove that fell on the floor with the edge of your shoe and lost your body's sterility...FAIL...go home, and don't forget to send the $1300 usd cheque for the next time around on the cpne")
no more horrible night mares about whether or not i will bomb on the cpne and never get behind the nsg station as an rn. no more cares about whether my 3rd attempt on the cpne will be unsuccessful. forgive me if i am discouraging any other prospective excelsior students...but i dont think that this program is a very honest, and fair way of getting an ADN in nsg. NO nurse is 100% perfect and this should not be expected of anyone at any stage of nursing particularly at the beginner level in a testing situation. i thought that the program prepared one to be a 'first-day' nurse...not a veteren nurse who is perfect with all skills.
as a non-rpn, this school was not going to meet my career goals either...i don't feel that learning how to give a back-rub and distraction activities REALLY WELL is the mainstay of nsg practise and should be emphasized so heavily. and so what if the blood pressure i read is slightly different than the examiner anyway? is this really such a big deal? wouldn't it be worse if i got the correct bp reading,but i didnt even know what to do if it were out of range? there was a little girl who died in a local hospital here from shock presenting with an extemely low and narrow pulse pressure. the oriental nurse who dealt with her was from a bsn program and had said she was never really taught the meaning of shock in school (fool). anyway, the child is dead, this 'nurse' (or criminal, whatever) is still working and the advice given in this act of malpractise was that the school emphasize on the concept of shock for its students. i wonder what excelsior would have to say about that.
to me, skillful nursing practice is much more than 'perfect practise' and being taught to show skills like a robot. i really want to know what i am DOING as a nurse. as a non-nurse in this program i felt i would be at a real disadvantage for, say, moving eventually into fields like ICU, etc.
dont get me wrong, excelsior is a good program in the right circumstance. i still maintain that if i were an rpn, this program would meet my needs. and that is really who the program was intended for. i guess i was just a dreamer and maybe too hopeful that wishful thinking and determination, could help me become that nurse i so want to be. i dont' see it as a loss...the theoretical preparation will position me perfectly to do well throughout the program i'm sure...hopefully this prep will be a little insurance for me, should i decide to sleep in on a morning class or two!
it's never too late for dreams to come true. i'll be starting in sept 2002 and i know each month will bring me a step closer to my dream.
thanks for listening everyone