feeling unsure... need input - page 2
Alright. Let me preface this by saying that I have worked *extremely* hard to get where I am right now with no help... I work full time, attend school full time, I am winding down the semester with... Read More
Nov 22, '02Delirium,
I used to feel like this after every sememster. I questioned my motives, and frequently questioned if going to nursing school was the right thing for me.
One time I was on break with some of the RN's that I worked with (I was a CNA and EMT) and they were talking trash about the EMT's that I worked with. Later that day the ER/EMS director called me at home and I was very upset and told her why. She said to me "Now you know the kind of nurse you do not want to be, you have the choice not to become like that. Quitting nursing school is one option, but another option is making the decision to behave in the way that you would like others to. I hope you make the right choice." She never once told me what she thought I should do, just that I had choices regarding my behavior. Now, when I work with people with bad attitudes, I just stay away from them. If they want to kiss up to the docs and wait on them, that is their choice. I choose not to act like a maid because I am not a maid and I believe that when nurses act like that, it creates an expectation. I believe that you will get as much respect and you expect to get and earn. You cannot wait on doctors and expect them to respect you for that. Same goes for your kids, would you let your children treat you this way? ( I am not talking about small children, I am talking about older children) If no, then why in the world would you let a mere aquantence treat you like that.
I refuse to even respond to treatment that is not acceptable to me.
I believe that all the nurses that you are observing as a student are role models. It's up to the individual student to discriminate what roles are acceptable and what are not. Use the positive and discard the negative. Just remember that not everything you will see in clinicals will be kosher. Not every nurse will do things the way that you have been taught to believe is the right way. This is where the good instructors come in to play. If you have decent instructors, you may be able to bring up these concerns and they may be able to help you to sort through your feelings and thoughts. I was lucky, we had great instructors that did not forget what it was like to be a student.
Good luck in your decision. I hope you make the best decision for you.
Nov 22, '02Yes, actually I went into nursing school after high school........but I had other things to do..............
then I returned to nursing school in "my second lifetime".........
Nov 22, '02You are definetly NOT alone! I was JUST talking to one of my classmates about this the other day. We seem to go through phases of enthusiasm and phases of self-doubt. Every week I flip flop back and forth wondering if I am doing the right thing. But one thing keeps me going.......there are TONS of different ways to be a nurse. If I (or you) can't stand the hospital setting we don't have to be there!! There are so many ways to be a nurse. It doesn't have to always be in a hospital. More than anything I am just trying to find my "nursing niche" I graduate in May and I have no idea where I want to work!! I just wanted you to know that you are not alone....and I feel better knowing that I am not alone!! Good luck!!
Nov 24, '02Delirious!
I have been feeling the same way as of late. I have one semester left till I graduate! I just recently found the answer I needed.
As part of our clinicals, we have to go to a school, a doctors office and the health department. For me this was the best experience yet. I was able to see how nursing is used in a situation outside of the hospital. To me the hospital is full of catty backbiting women, but at the health department I found the place for me!
Take a look at what else is out there! There are SSSSOOOOO many more places for a nurse to use her skills. Perhaps finding one of these areas will give you back the inspiration you started with!
Good Luck and Keep up the Work!!