I'm a 1st year nursing student and I'm one of those people who looks at the "good" side of things and
who believes we should all give someone the benefit of the doubt.
With that said, I have always wanted to be a nurse, because I have thought of the nursing career as
the angels of the hospital. They are the caregivers, the ones who listen by lending an ear and a shoulder to cry on, and
who do, what I think, are the most difficult items in regards to patient care. A patient may not have a doctor at their side as they are passing on and leaving the Earth, but, they will always have their nurse.
I am in my Med-Surg rotation and honestly, I hate my life right now. I have done fabulous with classes & clinicals thus far. However, this particular nursing clinical instructor favors students who are CNA or PCT. If you have not worked or do work as a Patient Care Tech or Certified Nursing Assistant, then you shouldnt be in school right now. Her philosophy is 'you have to pay your dues,' and you are doing a disservice to everyone by not knowing what you're doing. She was a CNA and that's how it should be for anyone who wants to attend nursing school and to be a legitimate nurse. I used to think my instructor was just in a bad mood or having a bad day as she snapped at me, because I try to stay positive. However, she dislikes me intensely. Since I am one of the younger ones in our group, I am like a small animal and she is the lion in pursuit of her prey.
Thats how I feel. We have a clinical group of 6. half of us happen to be fresh to the hospital, no true hospital experience. The other 3 work in hospitals as CNA's. They get treated much better by this instructor, while our group of 3 are just humiliated, put down, and just ignored. It is gut wrenching. I dont know what to do. Drop out, go to another school, talk to my instructor (which i dont want to do). I'm at a crossroads. I go home and cry in the car. My husband tells me to go to our clinical manager at the school. I don't want to. I don't want a confrontation with this instructor. I do what I'm supposed to be doing and I feel I am doing it well. I interact well with all of the other students and the hospital's own RN's but myself and the other 2 students without any hospital experience are getting knocked around like bowling pins. The other 2 students seem to be taking it well. They are older and seem to deal with things alright. I am just a mess. Please advise. Thank you.
I posted in Student Forums, but posts from Nurses would be appreciated as well. thx