Depressed....winter blues/too much on the plate....

  1. Hey, all...For those of you who know me on here, might be a bit of a suprise, as I try to keep a postitive attitude for all(me and my classmates)....I was sitting at home tonight, and the same few thoughts kept coming up.
    1. "Why am I in nursing school?"- when I'm on the floor as a student, I ALWAYS feel like I make a difference....at work, not so much. I've never felt so much like I don't matter. I'm barked at for orders, people don't respect me enough to tell me what's going on with my patients, we're always short staffed...I just feel like I'm ready to chuck it all and go live in Brazil or somewhere where life is slower....

    2. "Why am I always the go-to for everyone?"-Just kinda feel like almost everyone looks to me when I'm feeling down, and I'm always the one doing the encouraging. Never really feel like my NS friends realize that I need a little reassurance/pick me up time and again...saw a peanuts special tonight that really hit home "who reassures the reassurer?"

    3. "what is it about NS that makes our families feel that they can add to our stress levels?"- I love my family, don't get me wrong. But they add so much to our already overworked lives. I'm getting asked about things that I don't care about, situations that I have no business getting involved in, my dad left for the winter last Sunday and if something happens, I don't know his wishes, where his paperwork is, I think he's going without insurance, I don't even know where to begin talking to him about that....do I do it face to face, write a letter because he won't talk about it, what?.....Too much going on.

    Someday NS will be done, and with time comes the comfort factor of "how" to be a nurse. But after 2 close codes in 2 shifts, and the fact I always feel like a hinderance during a code as a tech...how am I supposed to really make a difference to my patients? Just part of the season I imagine.....Thanks for listening...
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  2. 3 Comments

  3. by   NurseJeanB
    Hang in there locolorenzo. Nursing school is a lot of work, but you have been doing well so far and that is more than a lot of people can say. It takes a person with tenacity, intelligence and character to be the "go to" person. When you are all done you will come out of it with all three traits intact, and a wealth of knowledge to add.
  4. by   SuesquatchRN
    Loco, let go of the things you can't control, like your dad. And hang tought. You're going to be a fine nurse, and that's what this is all for.

    Now, a long, hot bubble bath does wonders. I don't know if you're a guy but I introduced my stressed-out husband to them and I highly recommend a long, hot bubble bath.

  5. by   TheCommuter
    You cannot be all things to all people. Unfortunately, they'll attempt to pull you in different directions to satiate their selfish needs, but you must be the one to set the ultimate limits during these times when there's so much on your plate.

    Here's a hug, as you need it right now! :icon_hug: (((hug)))

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