with time and practice...
ugh...i'm nearing the end of my first semester and up until last week, hadn't really had much in the way of "real" clinical experience. last week, we got to go for 4 days in a row, and i didn't really get to do too much either because i had a rather easy patient.
TODAY, we got to go to the OR to watch surgeries. my instructor asked if i could do a cath, right out of the blue, so i was a ball of nerves, lol. the patient was a heavy lady and for some reason, they were not able to spread her legs very far apart. first, i screwed up on gloving, i hate for people to stare at me, and they were, the doctor was even in the room which made for even more nerves. so i get the gloves on, and they direct me to where i need to place the cath, and it wouldn't go, for about 1 minute i tried, so one nurse took it and tried, still wouldn't go, i swear it looked like the place, well it wasn't. anyway, they got it and everything went from there. the doctor made some rude comments about the nurses needing to go back to nursing school
(he was joking with them i think? not sure) or going home and practicing in front of a mirror. i felt dumb and useless. my instructor said she just wanted me to attempt it, so she was proud of me for not turning it down. i still felt like a dummy.
then, the same patient, i got woozy and had to walk out, i really am useless!
please, please tell me it gets easier. the little practice i have had has been on lovely plastic people. i was really nervous with all the "real" nurses in there watching me, and felt so dumb that i screwed up gloving of all things.