Ever found your goal in life that you wanted more than anything? I received it and believed I was the most blessed person on the planet. It seems this dream has slipped through my fingers so fast, when in reality its been a little over 8 months. I have clinched my fist hoping to catch the last bit of rope to find only a nub of chance.
I am failing nursing school.
When I received my acceptance letter, I fell to my knees crying and overjoyed; I knew it was meant to be. Overdramatized? Maybe, but I had worked so long and hard for this opportunity.
Trying to explain this to anyone not in nursing school (i.e. parents & "outsider" friends) is practically impossible. Despite that my parents are worried, but want what is best for me and believe I know what that is. Which I am in completely limbo about.
At my school's program, they raised the grading scale for the new incoming juniors (my class) to a 75 is passing and 74 is failing. But that is not an overall score, all exam grades have to at least total a 74... No matter if your consider to be passing the corse.
Oh, and no rounding or curves. P.P.S. 2nd semester is our absolute hardest.
Currently my scores follow:
Aging: Overall 83% Exam grade 78%
Current standing = Passing, but a 10% final remains
Pharm: 63.95% Exam grade 60%
Not passing, but over 25% of the course remains...still unlikely though. Nor do I feel safe giving meds, assuming I did pass. This teacher and course has been a train wreck.
Chronic (Med Surg): Overall 82.98% Exam grade 66.6% (Superstitious much?)
Not passing, a 15% exam IV remains along with a 15% non-ati final. Basically, I'd have to make a 100 on the 4th exam to pass.
Chronic Clinical: 87.69% Not really sure if this is combined grade or not, either way not helpful. Nonetheless, passing.
Mental Health: Overall 71% Exam 71%
This teacher is always behind, 4 months in and that score is based of off only 2 exams total. >45% of the course remains but still, not passing.
All together I am not passing 3 of my courses, in my program failing 2 course in a semester equates in failing the program without a 2nd chance next spring. There are tons of mindless projects due in the next 3 weeks and none of them will help improve my exam scores, only distract.
"These are the facts, they are undisputed." -- Just lightening the mood.
So for those of you still reading... What would you do? I have hyperventilated twice and cried so many times I've lost count. This semester has made me bitter and depressed. Yet, as my father reminded me: I have made numerous friends and found the love of my life, whom is now my fiancÚ. Why regret taking a chance? My once known dream has become my unknown. Dropping out would not be an absolute end to my becoming a nurse or even holding a bachelors degree, I will simply regroup and find a new route.
Many of my teachers informed me they dropped out and became LVNs, then worked their way up. The biggest thing I will miss is my patients, I loved all of them. I have lost track of the hugs, thank you's, and general encouragement from these complete strangers; they are honestly what has gotten me thus far.
Stay or go? Thoughts? Comments? Suggestions? Encouragement? ... Rotten tomatoes?
I simply need some experienced nurses input, people who understand my embarrassment, broken heart, and indecision. Thank you all in advance!