Quote from Emily Star
I am going to say I have looked into school counseling since i have no medical insurance... and it's not going to work due to their policies so I am once again trapped and have no where to turn....
Could you explain that you mean by "and it's not going to work due to their policies"?
I, personally, struggled in nursing school (personal issues affecting my ability to focus and function).
At one point, I was in a low low place.
Just being able to verbalize myself (and not burdening my friends and family with my "drama") was an enormous relief.
Sometimes just saying the words out loud to a nonjudgmental listener can help you gain insight.
I had a few ah-hah
I did not have insurance and so the school counselor was a good deal for me.
Do you work and do you have EAP?
I used that too and got two free counseling sessions.
BTW... you are not solely defined by nursing school and failing nursing school is nothing to kill yourself over... and I'm sure the ones who love you agree.
As for the disrespectful girls who behave as though they are in high school...
High school is over and those who continue to behave as though they are in high school aren't better than you and they should not make you feel inferior... though I wonder if you shouldn't feel a degree of pity towards those who refuse to grow up.
Please do not give up on getting help.