I can definitely relate to this, and I'll tell you why in a minute. But first, I just wanted to ask do your principles affect your reasons for wanting to return?
Earlier this year, I applied for a job as a CNA at a long term care facility. I interviewed with the human resource manager (who is a RN) there and was verbally told that I was hired. I thought, "Great! I'm gonna love this". So, things were set in motion for me to get my employment physical, immunizations up to date, drug testing and what not over a span of a few weeks. I was told that I'd be starting these CNA classes about a month's time from my date of hire. They pretty much hire you first and then train you to be a CNA.
Well, about a week after I was told I was verbally hired, an emergent situation occurred which required me to having surgery to remove my gallbladder. (I am soooo glad that thing is out by the way) So, as a prospective employee with good intentions I informed my future employer that an issue had arised and that I needed to have surgery as soon as possible. Not only did this jeopardize my future employment plans but also created tension between the manager and myself. I was simply told that I would not be able to do my job, even if I had sufficient time for recovery after surgery. And that, I should reconsider my interest in this job which really meant to decline it.
There was no sympathy, no understanding, no willing to work with me and my situation and no compassion for the state I was in. And, this was coming from an RN manager. I was in shock. I just kept thinking, "How can she be so cold!". This lovely woman who was excited and eager to hire me has now become my worse nightmare. I tried to reason with her, it didn't work. Nothing I said or could've done would've changed her mind. Although, she did say that I could reapply for this job in a few months time when another session of CNA classes were being held. I said, "Fine, then I have to decline this position at this time". BAM! I then hung up the phone.
It then occurred to me that she had to do what she had to do, because I would've been a liability. That I can understand. But, what I don't understand is her coldness her utter lack of compassion and willingness to help me or even empathize with over what has happened in my life. THAT baffles me and still does to this day.
I did end up re-applying to the same place a few months later, as she said I could. I decided to give her the benefit of the doubt. But, then was informed that I would have to repeat the WHOLE pre-employment proccess over again, as if it never happened. I'd have to interview with this same RN manager. So, I did. Although, this time she acted as if she didn't know or remember me at all, which I know wasn't true. To me, it seemed as if she were playing games. I then, gave up on that position. I thought if she's like this in the hiring process what is she going to be like if I'm actually working there as an employee. Do all the employees act this way and if they do, I don't want to be a part of it. To me, it wasn't worth it. If one doesn't respect their applicants, how are applicants supposed to respect their employers?!? Disgusting.
I just thought I'd share that with you. Even though our circumstances are different, they are strangely familiar in a way. I hope you will make the best decision for yourself. If you can put aside the negativity, then more power to you.
I do wish you the best.