I have been a nurse forever...I also suffer from depression which has been MUCH worse since our unit got a new manager (a little over a year ago). I was suspended last year for a day without pay because apparently she told me to come to her office and I didn't hear/process the request...just an example. Over the year I have been feeling more and more overwhelmed...there are only 2 nurses to cover ICU/Tele...(small hospital); myself and the former manager, 2 for 14 shifts and all but one LPN on med/surg are all PRN staff. (We had 4 ICU nurses but one transfered to surgery a year ago and another was fired by this manager...it was needed). That leaves the only full time RNs (the 2 ICU/Tele nurses) to cover med/surg too. Anyway I have been having trouble concentrating and getting my charting done...I'm the one that EVERYONE comes to to answer their questions and help solve their problems. Sorry this is so long...
I even had a sleep study done this summer to see if a CPAP would help me to sleep (manager knows all this cause I had asked if she could come in at 0600 the day of my test so I could leave on time to get to the test...she didn't show until 0800!).
Any way end of September after having my schedule switched around all summer so others could take vacations and orienting every new staff on the night shift (LPN that quit 2 hrs b-4 shift started, RN that got moved to day shift before her orientation was even done, a new grad LPN that is basically dangerous, and had just started the 4th (RN) when I called in and the 5th has started since I left) and working short because our ward clerk had an MI...I went to my Dr. sick with a cold and sobbing because I couldn't take it anymore-he told me to call in sick that week and my therapist told me to call in the next Monday and Tuesday until I could see the Psychiatrist...my manager called me and told me that I had to meet with her and the Clinical administator where I received a write up for my overtime and for crying at work...she said that she gets multiple phone calls every night I work about me crying or being hysterical and the was totally PO'd when I gave her the order for a 30 day LOA. She said that I was causing them hardship and that I would have to be replaced and there probably not be a position when I returned from the LOA that they needed to check to see if it was 'real' and would not give me the family leave papers to fill out. What do you all think?
Oct 18, '06
I think unfortunately you are too kind and have put up with too much, for too long. You have let them take advantage of you. They need you worse than you need them - even though they certainly don't act like it.
You need to look at the situation as if you're interviewing them as an employer - are they meeting your standards? No! So you need to fire them. Resign before they try to run you out. It will look better to future employers if you leave on your terms. And you will feel better knowing you took control of the situation, instead of letting them decide your fate.
Right now you're letting them have all the power and run your life. They are using your employment with them to threaten and control you, and it seems like it's taken away your strength and self-worth. What's the worst that could happen if you leave? You have to go out and find a new job? Good - there are many other jobs to chose from, and a greater chance of being treated well and respected - better than the chance you have currently. Even if you live in a small community without many hospitals there is home health, clinics, doc's offices, school nursing, insurance companies, pharm/med equip sales, even answering nurse hotlines from your own home.
I was working on a unit that made me feel miserable and disrespected. I met with an advisor and said that if I didn't get transferred somewhere else, I couldn't be a nurse anymore, because it was ruining my life. It took 3 months, but I now work on a different unit and my life has been turned around. I'm so much happier now!
Perhaps you're quite used to where you work and exploring opportunities seems out of your comfort zone. But is that any worse than what you're experiencing now? It doesn't get any worse than the situation you're in.
Your current work environment is abusive and you need to protect yourself and find a Plan B. First take some time off to heal and build yourself up, then explore other opportunites and move on. Best of luck to you.
Last edit by anne74 on Oct 18, '06
Nov 5, '06
Wanted to give an update on my situation...I took the leave and during that time I did decide to get off night shift and quit nursing for a while. Now get this...there has been posted for some time a 1/2 time position for a material Managememt Clerk...I'm thinking: less/different type of stress; will keep me on the insurance and I can get another part time job somewhere else. So I e-mailed the manager of the department on 17 Oct telling her that I was interested, she in turn forewarded it to Human Resourses (new guy couldn't remember his name) and also to HER boss . On 30 Oct I turned in a transer request form with a cover letter stating:
"During my leave of absence I have given it much thought and I have chosen to focus on improving my health (diabetes and depression). In my decision I have chosen to get off the njght shift and to quit nursing for a while. Therefore I will not be returning to ****** in the cpacity as a nurse, as at this time in my life I consider second floor to be a hostile work environment for me. I am applying for a transfer to the 0.5 position as Material managment Clerk, (if this position is still open)."
PS I see my Dr. tomorrow, 31 October, and should receive my release to work at that time.
I attached the transfer sheet and hand delivered it to human resources but the dude wasn't there.
Next day saw my Dr., he told me that I resigned and I said "No I applied for a transfer to another department" I again hand delivered the release to HR and again the dude was not there so I gave it to his 'assistant'...later that day since I hadn't heard anything I e-mailed the HR person and a copy to the Administrative clinical director (she was the other person besides my boss in the meeting when this all started ). About an hour later I got an e-mail from the ACD stating that I had resigned on 10-30-06 and that she thought I was over qualified for the position I requested to transfer too (well duh! that's why I want the position). And said that I had filled out the appropriate paperwork for the transfer. That was it...I no longer have a job because they resigned me. Its been a week and I have heard nothing from the hospital about the transfer, about cobra--anything. 1 Nov I applied for medical assist and food stamps because I used up all of my sick and vacation time on the leave.
I know the CEO from nursing school
...should I bring this emotional, mental, financial distress that has been thrown at me for being diabetic and depressed to her attention?
Last edit by Diploma'82 on Nov 5, '06
Nov 25, '06
Another update...since I "resigned"... NOT(!). I have not heard a word from the hospital, found out last Wed. that the position I requested to transfer to is no longer posted...so I was not even given a chance to explain why I wanted the position! They screwed up there because I could have also been used for education resource because I was the only one, it seems, that knew the monitors, the IV pumps, and the call system. The really sad thing is, I'm sure my former boss was/is happy that she finally got rid of me but, when I get me that lawyer...she has no clue that her boss will make it all be her fault and she will get the fall out from the whole thing! giggle,giggle...bad nurse,er former nurse! So far I am not missing it at all...I do plan to keep up with what's happening in the field so when I'm ready (if ever) to go back, I can.
I have a temporary job at a fullfillment facility...busy this time of year. Standing 5-8 hours a day, making and packing boxes...definately different...but it is giving me a new out look on life outside a hospital...good learning experience.
Last edit by Diploma'82 on Nov 25, '06
: Reason: spelling and grammer