I was in the chat room last nite and talked to a few people and got some pretty good advice but was trying to still process what would be the best thing for me to do. I am a new grad since May of last year. I began working at a hospital in Sept and they just recently began training me for a Team Leader position, since they do team nursing there. Well, it's been a complete disaster. Their turnover is tremendous, they understaff all the time. They only gave me a two week orientation! Most of my friends are getting 6-12 weeks at their hospitals. Well, on my last nite of orientation something happened and I don't know if I could even go back to work there. I was trying to wait until my six mos and transfer to a hospital within the same system. And if I didn't do that, I wanted to give a two week notice to cover my references. People are telling me that nursing jobs
are so abundant that it shouldn't be a big deal but I don't want to burn any bridges. Okay, here's what happened in a nutshell---WARNING! It may contain some graphic material but I may not be able to explain it and the depth of it without going into detail. Sorry if I offend anyone. Okay, I work on a med-surg, post surgical unit. We had a lady come from the ER who was in the process of a miscarriage. She was 17 weeks and her US showed that the baby was in her pelvic/vaginal area. She came to the ER stating that she felt the "baby was coming out". Okay, so I admit this woman - I'm still on orientation supposedly. First of all, she shouldn't have even been on our floor and second, I should have had someone help me through this mess. Well, I get her admitted, she's comfortable, and then the doc shows up. My preceptor or whatever you want to call her, sends me in with the doc and disappears! At this point, the doc is asking for some gloves and lubrication. And before I know it, she's pulling out this fetus. Oh my gosh, I didn't know what to do. The patient was basically in shock. Then the doc says she needs a clamp and sterile scissors which we don't carry on our floor because we are not an OB floor. We had to call the OB floor, and the house supervisor. In the meantime the doc is waiting like 20 mins to cut the cord....then she asks me for a blanket to wrap the baby in. Hands the baby to me!!! I didn't know what to do. And the patient is right there. She tells me to put the baby in the STORAGE ROOM until the mother decides if she wants to hold, have a burial,.....etc. In the meantime, OB comes down, weighs it, takes footprints, and explains all this stuff we need to do, the forms, etc. the grieving materials for the mom....and that we need to take some polaroids of it. I had a new grad nurse with me who was very brave, thank god. Well, then we were told that if the mother decided to "dispose" of the baby that we would have to put it in saline water. So they gave us the things we needed and left. I know that I may have to deal with things such as this in my career but I feel it was totally wrong for me to be left alone. Now I feel like I'm suffering from PTSD or grief or something like that. I am ready to just leave this place but I want a good reference....or at this point I don't know if I care. I was going to call on Monday and tell them I can't work under these conditions any more, that my license is on the line. Someone here mentioned to me to go get a doc's note saying I can't return to work but then others are saying that may look incompetent when I go to the next place. I need some serious advice before Monday when I have to go back to this place. I don't feel safe here. I have only had two weeks of training and they are throwing me to the wolves.....
Mar 9, '02
WOW...rncountry and Mary Dover! I absolutely, and totally agree with everything you posted!
This poor nurse has been traumatized! I mean she is saying she is about to go over the edge! Mary Dover..you're correct...SHE must go and take care of herself....FIRST!
rncountry-"There is a terrible tendency in nursing to say Buck up and deal with it. Sometimes that is appropriate and sometimes that is not. In this situation it is not. " Totally CORRECT!
This is a time...when this woman needs some understanding...but mostly...she needs to find a more supportive setting! It's evident that she hasn't received the kind of precepting, that would have allowed her to set into the position of team leader!
The fact that those more experienced nurses left her to "deal with it"...makes me want to ...just scream! How could so called caring people to do this to another person??? Yeah...maybe they're burnt out, and have had enough too! But to leave her in that situation....was just plain...heartless!
Amy...I know only you can say...when enough is enough! But from what I'm readiing...I think you have already said just that! Time to pick up your pen and pencils, and go play somewhere else!
This past summer I met a new nurse...who was also thrown to the wolves in her first place of employment! Thankfully SHE has a sister who was an experienced nurse...who told her just what I and other are telling you now! SHE was quickly able to find a position, where she given the time to gain her sea legs before being released on her own. When I first met her...she had little or no confident in her abilities. She was wide eyed and scared!
But to make a long story short...I went back to work a shift for an agency, and I worked with her.... 7 months later. She had been transformed into a "real nurse"! She had an air of confident that showed in everything she did. And you know what else had changed?? SHE SMILED almost all the time...NO matter what was going on! SHE also had walked out of her last position...and she is a completely different nurse then the one I met just 7 short months ago! Just 7 months ago..I wouldn't have let her take care of my toe! But the nurse I met on that day...I would let her take care of even my own child!
Now you can stay....and try and "suck it in"...or you can do what is neccessary to take CARE OF YOURSELF! Whatever you do...YOU must make the decision...as YOU are the only one who knows what YOU can and can't handle! Life is short...and I am constantly reminded of that fact on a daily basis. To some two weeks in a drop in the bucket...BUT to others it's a lifetime! Just ask the people who thought they were going to wake up today and didn't...ooh...but you can't...they're gone. I wonder what they were going to do the next two weeks of their lost life???
Last edit by Brownms46 on Mar 9, '02