I love the place where I work, and I like my patients and the people I work with . . . But . . . I think that they sense that I am a bit weird (lol really). I try to be normal, just like everyone else, but I lack of self esteem so much that I am constantly cutting myself down. I don't really do it on purpose, its just kinda what I always have done. Then I find myself complaining about anything and everything, and if I get very stressed I often accidentally talk in a snippy tone of voice. Like if another staff memeber calls my name, instead of a nice "yeah", it comes out as a very rude sounding "WHAT?" I don't ever mean to be that way but I cant really help it . . . what comes out, comes out. I am still on my 90 day probation and I am paraniod about some one talking to administration or the DON about my "attitude". I really want everyone to like me (I know this sounds juvenile) but I want to be the best I can be, and I don't want to be some where where I am disliked (the place where I work is the only place I can work in this town as a CNA and I love this town) Any advice would be really appriciated.
Oct 26, '02
We all get snippy at times, especially if you're orientating on a rough floor. I know I showed my butt a time or two
. Just try to be focused on being a good nurse- you're co-workers will respect a good nurse, even if you're not always pleasant. I know that I would rather work with a stick-in-the-mud that did her job, than someone that was really nice but didn't do squat. We have a few of those on our floor, and I hate working with them. Also, try talking to your boss about the things that are stressing you out. If you have a good boss that actually listens, it can help. I thank God for my wonderful boss, because if it wasn't for her, I would have totally left the nursing field. Also, all nurses are weird (including myself). I personally don't know any "normal" nurses. You can't experience the things we experience on our jobs and not come out of it a little "touched," so to speak.
Last edit by BBFRN on Oct 26, '02