Hello
I work FT on a busy Peds unit. It's a toxic work environment for many reasons with a high turnover rate.
I am stressed and burnt out to the max. The heavy patient load, constant precepting and being in charge is wearing me out. Not to mention the other stressors of difficult family members and physicians. Some staff members are catered to, (don't have to precept or be in charge as much) They play the game better than I do, acting overwhelmed/playing dumb etc. so they don't get more responsibilities. Unfortunately, the only reward for good hard work, is more work.
I look terrible, I feel terrible. I can't sleep and I'm anxious all the time. Sometimes I get chest pain at work. I feel like I'm going to explode.
I'm thinking of switching to per diem status in order to have some more free time to get my head together. Eventually I will phase out of bedside nursing altogether. I just don't want to take the first job offered, I really want to get well.
I was thinking of quitting and taking the summer off, but then at least per diem would pay the rent. Also, per diem doesn't have to precept or be in charge. I am married, so I have my husband's insurance.
Does this sound like a good idea? Anyone here per diem and like it? Thanks.