Can anyone relate? ......
I've been off orientation for almost two months on a cardiac floor, and my confidence is shot way down! New to floor nursing and have just realized that i am horrible at managing time. Constantly feeling pressured about getting meds passed on time and completing necessary tasks. I've unintentionally let written orders go unchecked until the end of the day. From the moment I set foot on the floor, it is just non-stop. I never take breaks because I would just be stressing about everything that needs to be done for my patients. Everything is task oriented at this point, and its hard for me to make time to research my patients and get "the whole picture" of what is going on with them, and I hate that.
I feel so guilty that I am unable to provide the best quality of care. At the end of the day, which NEVER consists of me leaving on time, I constantly think about anything I may have forgotten to do, which there usually is something i forgot or didn't chart, like an IVsite d/c'd, or didnt give a PRN laxative post surgery, per unit protocol. I've overlooked having cardiac enzymes drawn on a new admit on time. Sometimes I leave things for the next shift, which I feel awful about, just because I didn't have time or felt so rushed during the day that It was overlooked.
There are a couple other new nurses on the floor that seem to be handling their job much better than I, and hardly ever stick around late to finish up. I feel I cannot keep up, and honestly wonder how anyone can stay on top of things on a unit like this... But they all seem to.
Also, I feel i make a lot of mistakes, am stressed, inadequate, and worry that one day it could be a mistake that would harm a patient, or that I may miss a sign in my patient to indicate they are turning critical.
I love the patients, like the co-workers. I don't know if I should give it my all for a good 6 mos to a year, or start looking into transferring somewhere else. Nursing is not for everyone, and I'm starting to wonder of its not for me?
Any advice on how to improve time management, build confidence, and/or how to realize when it's time to move on or transfer to another area? Can anyone relate? Would Greatly appreciate it!