i have been burnt-out for a long time, so long i can't remember. i have already been doing this for too long, despite this i still try to do my best, as i want to treat others as i want to be treated. i may become sick one day and do not want to sow what i don't want to reap.
i already told all of my story a long time ago, i won't retell it. but i know it's over for me for real now. sunday night a patient grabbed and twisted my right wrist, spraining it. i am online doing a serious job search, although it is not comfortable. he grabbed it while i was flushing his saline lock. he was known to be labile but not violent, however after he did this, the others said 'oh he kicked the doctor the other night' and 'he threw food at me on purpose' but there was nothing on the kardex stating this and it was not mentioned in report, all they said was that he was non-compliant with his medicines, none of them being pych meds. i believe that he is a psych pt that slipped through the cracks. he is homeless.
i am right-handed. what can i do in nursing without writing? it hurts to write. after being molested, cursed and otherwise abused by patients, family members and staff who don't help, including managers who only care about their six-figure check, it is time to get out. i thank god that i was not getting blood from him, and got stuck with a live needle. who knows what he might have...aids, hepc, i don't want them. i am not a pill taker but i am taking naprosyn for the pain. and since i have to wrap my wrist after 22 years, how can i wash my hands properly? it is time to move on. i have just sent two resumes out this evening. i hope someone likes me.
i have a ba in theatre arts, and taught summer school this year. i absolutely loved it! there is no perfect job and i don't expect to find it. but i know that i can be happy doing something else and keep my health at the same time. why should i continue to be abused? it's just not worth it anymore.
what i do to relax: i burn lavender oil and white sage, and have made a committment to myself to include some type of beauty in my life on a weekly basis, last week i went to a film festival, this week i repotted some little plants that i found for $1.00 and arranged them on my front porch. these things are inexpensive or don't cost anything. and they keep my sanity.