I am now working in a wonderful LTC facility, that is in a rural area, with a caring supportive staff. (I know, pinch me I MUST be dreaming) Free meals, and health insurance for both full and part time workers. What hurts you ask? One of the residents is my 1st grade teacher. She is a resident there. She has Alzheimer's, and it is killing me. I mean talk about irony. Here's the lady that helped me through 1st grade, taught me math,writing, spelling
, and here I am years later, with the roles reversed with me feeding her meds to her like a helpless child. I literally have to FORGET about the women she was, in order not to break down when I see her during my shift, and so far it's been working. But when I get home, the tears come just the same. She worked at a grade school where all of the teachers were like a family, and cared for each student like their own. I am still very close to another teacher, and my old principal. They've been thinking about seeing her, but I silently pray that they don't. Please I DON'T mean that to sound cruel, it's just that they don't see what I see on a daily basis, and I don't want them to remember this brilliant, kind, woman like this. Oh God, sometimes this job really breaks your heart. But it's still the best job there is. All nurses are heroes in my eyes. God bless you all.