I'm not sure if I'm posting this in the right place, so please forgive me in advance.
I'm a relatively new RN grad. Dec. 2010. I had been unable to find a decent job for months. I have been LPN since 2003, but not worked steadily the whole time.
I had always been interested in LD nursing/OB and potentially community health/psych/prison nursing, etc.
I do not enjoy bedside nursing/med-surg as it is WAY understaffed in my opinion.
Anyway, before I get off track. After a few months of not finding anything, i got hired for what I thought was an ICU job, so I assumed i'd have 1-2 critical patients, multiple drips/vents, etc.. and a chance to really LEARN and spend time with my patients..
Reality is....it is more or less a med-surg unit and not really an ICU, and on my first night of orientation, my preceptor barely knew that she had to have an orientee... She had no time to show me much of the equipment (iV pumps, monitor screens) or how to do any of the paperwork and whatnot.
It was horrible....we got 6 admissions, and it was just her and one LPN, and 2 of us new RN grads....
all the nurses on the floor when I had my tour had quietly hinted that the staffing was horrible, and they hated their jobs, and that they had went through 5 new grads recently and NONE stayed. That should have been a RED FLAG to me.
So, I just don't feel like this floor is going to work out for me. i went into nursing wanting to provide SAFE nursing CARE... but it seems that even the experienced nurses (my preceptor has been there 20 years) can't even keep their heads above water, so what hope do I have? It seems like there is barely enough time to assess the patients, let alone give meds, chart vitals, and other numerous things....
there is no unit secretary, NO tele tech, even though most of the patients are on tele, and there is no pharmacy personnel after hours..... basically, there is not enough support to safely take care of the patients, IMO.
I do not want to risk my license just for the sake of having a 'job'.... I want to quit so bad, yes even after one shift, but how would I go about obtaining a new job? Would i have to list this one on my resume?? If so, how would I explain leaving this job to a potential new employer during an interview?
Sorry if this post is disjointed and jumps from thought to thought. My brain is fried, my heart is aching, and I feel there may be no hope for me to find my 'niche'.. I don't think I can survive the requisite '1 YEAR' requirement in med-surg/floor nursing.... I want to specialize. I'd rather work home health/community/dr office/psych/prison....
Hospitals care more about the bottom line and don't care how short staffed the nurses have to work.
I don't know how y'all do it, but I CANNOT be in 6 patient rooms at once!!! How can I safely assess/care for patients on tele/drips when we constantly get new admissions, no secretary, and way too many forms to fill out. There is not enough time and not enough ME to get everything done!!!! am I just a terrible nurse, or what??
I want to quit this job, I know it's not gonna get any better, but then how do I explain it on my work history??
What do you guys think? similar experiences anyone can share? Advice? HELP!!!
I'm a mother of 4 children and want to provide for my family. I worked hard to go from LPN to RN, had a 4.0 GPA at graduation, and I love learning and love nursing theory, but in reality it is impossible to practice the type of nursing that goes by 'textbook'.. I don't like the idea of taking shortcuts and being unsafe. but it seems all the floor nurses are doing it, otherwise they won't get their work done in time before they have to start their next shift!!!!!!
I could go on and on, but you all know what I mean..
My first night,,on orientation, I did not get a lunch break, and I only got to pee once........ i'm sorry, but I can't live like that..
maybe you all are martyrs and have bladders of steel and stomachs that can go without food, but I just can't survive like that... I get lightheaded and just feel horrible if I don't get regular sustenance.
ARe there any jobs out there that don't require inhuman suffering, being pulled in twenty directions at once? I don't want to give up on nursing as I have invested time and money in this, but I do not want to risk my patients or my license...... if i cant' find another area of nursing, I'm thinking of going into ultrasound sonography or something........