I am currently in my last semester of nursing school
, and I graduate in May. My whole time in nursing school, I have felt like this wasn't for me, but I kept telling myself it would get better. It hasn't. I excel in my classes and I enjoy learning information about health and the human body, but it's my clinical/practicum that are really a struggle for me. I can do the skills and tasks, but when it comes to interacting with patients and making connections with them, I just can't do it. I know this is a huge part of nursing, and that's why I feel like it's not for me. Not that I don't like people, or care about them, because I do, but I would just rather not chit chat and get to know every patient. I know that sounds bad, but it's the truth. I absolutely dread going to my practicum shifts, and I am so miserable throughout the day. I question myself daily on what I am doing with my life, and I know this isn't the path I'm intended to be on. With only two months left of school, I have no choice but to push through and graduate. I keep hoping working in the real world on a unit I want to be on will be better, and that these four years of college weren't a complete waste of time. I really do want to like being a nurse...
I guess I just wanted a place to put my thoughts together and be heard. Thanks for reading.
If anyone has any advice I would more than appreciate it!