So, Ive been reading this site for months now but just recently decided to become a member. Im a new grad (graduated in May with my BSN) and started working at a local hospital (med-surge). I quit after about 3 months working. It was a very tough decision but just couldn't take it anymore. I was crying a lot of the time and couldn't enjoy time off because I was constantly worring about work. I get that its expected for new grads but I couldn't take it. I simply wasn't happy working med-surge and knew day 1 that I never wanted to work med-surge but accepted the job thinking I could handle a year of it to get experience. Ever since I can remember I have always wanted to work in the nursery and later going into NICU. Unfortunately there has not been an opening in Nursery since I began the job hunt in March.
Its has now been 3 months since I have left my med-surge position and I am getting worried that I will never find a job or that someone wont hire me because I have been without work for so long. I recently got a job offer but declined due to unsafe work practices. I have an interview next week for shift care in the home (pediatrics). After reading through different posts for PDN I thought it might be a good fit for me since one of the reasons I hated med-surge was lack of time spent with patients. But I also read posts saying that people don't recommend going into PDN without experience in med-surge. I have some experience but is it enough? Before interviews I tend to do research about different positions and scare myself into thinking I cant do it. So I just don't know what to do anymore. All my life I have wanted to become a nurse and I'm scared to think that maybe this is just not for me. I often get obsessed with all the "what ifs" and all the things that could go wrong in a situation which make me feel like I cant do nursing ☹. I would hate to give up on nursing but if I cant do med-surge and its not recommended to go into home health/PDN with such little experience, and there is no Nursery positions open, I don't know what to do? What do you all think, could a new grad with 3 months experience be successful in PDN? Sorry for the rant I just kind of needed to vent and hear another nurses opinion on my situation. I appreciate you all taking the time to read this and hope you can give me your opinions on my situation.