need help for severe depression - page 4

I am an RN that lives for my career. I am now faced with the probability of losing the career I wanted for so long & worked so hard for.Severe depression has officially taken over. This past year has... Read More

  1. by   KnittingNurseStudent
    Hello
    I am very sorry to hear about all you are going through. I have had my share of disappointments lately!
    Here is a link to a devotional I read this morning. I hope it helps!
    http://www.ggwo.org/faiththoughts/January/23.html
  2. by   bargainhound
    Did you look at this site and contact them for help?

    http://www.nurseshouse.org

    Please, do and let us know the results.

    God bless you.

    Sharon
  3. by   begalli
    needshelp -

    You are in so much pain both physically and emotionally. I, probably like many reading this thread, am concerned about the "stupid thoughts" you are having. Are your thoughts related to suicide?

    Please tell your doctor about these thoughts tomorrow. I think this is so important.

    I am so so sorry that you are going through all of this and it seems like you are going through it so alone.

    We are here for you and value you tremendously and what you're going through. Please come back when you have these thoughts and talk to us.

    There is also a number you can call.

    1-800-273-TALK
    1-800-273-8255

    If suicide is not what you're thinking then I'm relieved. But you must know that your words are alarming and your situation is temporary though it may not feel that way now.

    Please come back to update us on how you're doing. Let us be there for you and again, please tell your doctor.
    Last edit by begalli on Jan 23, '05
  4. by   stbernardclub
    Direct all of your needs to a good physician !
  5. by   leslie :-D
    please have your gp refer you to a psychiatrist- a reputable one.
    there are those that just give you med after med after med and you're a zombie.
    you don't want that.
    my pcp initially prescribed my antidepressants.
    it wasn't until this year that i started seeing a psychiatrist for a variety of reasons. and we experimented around with meds til the right combo. and i still won't take one of thenm because it makes me so sedated. especially having the ocd, these intrusive thoughts are just not going to go away until you're on the right med.

    also ask your gp for a referral to a pain clinic as well as a therapist.
    you need to do everything possible for yourself to get yourself well again.
    you are so worth it.
    and there's no reason in the world why anyone should have to live with physical and emotional pain.
    please, try to motivate yourself enough to get the help you so very deserve.
    insist on it.
    i shall keep you in my prayers.
    and by all means, pm me anytime-there's alot to be shared.

    with peace,

    leslie
  6. by   Jo Dirt
    Needshelp, I know exactly what you are going through. DO NOT listen to people who have never been there. People who don't know what it is like seem to have the strongest opinions...
    I have suffered from debilitating depression most of my life (I'm 30) and I have a mother who turns her nose up at people who take antidepressants as "weak." When she found out I had started taking them she made sure to insert her opinion as fact, that people who have to resort to medication do so because they can't deal with life's problems the way everyone else has to.
    I say, maybe antidepressants may have made her a more pleasant person to be around!
    And my depression was made worse when stressors were added. What drove me over the edge was when my father-in-law moved in with us. I spiraled downhill from there (I also have a disabled husband who is legally blind). I had a mental breakdown and ran away from home, and ended up getting in a lot of trouble.

    Anyway, depression has to be one of the most misunderstood illnesses out there. I know how painful it is. It is as painful as any physical ailment you can have. I started taking Lexapro a year ago and I feel like it saved my life. And my only regret is the wasted years of my youth where I did nothing because I was exhausted and cynical, never doing anything except overeat and gain weight because I thought "what's the point?"
    Now, I am working on finishing up my associate degree in nursing, and I plan to go through an RN-MSN program ASAP after that. I still have days that aren't so good but in general my life has really changed, thanks to medication.
  7. by   needs help
    Quote from bargainhound
    Did you look at this site and contact them for help?

    http://www.nurseshouse.org

    Please, do and let us know the results.

    God bless you.

    Sharon
    Thanks for the link to this site I will try them. I never knew someplace like this existed. Thanks!!!!!
  8. by   needs help
    Quote from begalli
    needshelp -

    You are in so much pain both physically and emotionally. I, probably like many reading this thread, am concerned about the "stupid thoughts" you are having. Are your thoughts related to suicide?

    Please tell your doctor about these thoughts tomorrow. I think this is so important.

    I am so so sorry that you are going through all of this and it seems like you are going through it so alone.

    We are here for you and value you tremendously and what you're going through. Please come back when you have these thoughts and talk to us.

    There is also a number you can call.

    1-800-273-TALK
    1-800-273-8255

    If suicide is not what you're thinking then I'm relieved. But you must know that your words are alarming and your situation is temporary though it may not feel that way now.

    Please come back to update us on how you're doing. Let us be there for you and again, please tell your doctor.
    In response to your first question I'm sorry to say yes. I don't mean to alarm anyone. I have thought about it 'logically' and cannot do anything. the pain something like that would cause my family is unbearable to think about. Besides my life insurance(like all I'm sure) has a suicide clause (attempt at humor.) I remember my psych classes in nursing class, (I graduated in 98 so it's not too long ago) to allay fears I have no intentions or plans.
    I tried to tell the GP the last time i saw him but I worry that if i say I am having these thoughts i will be put on a mandatory 72 hour hold in a psych unit (state law) I could not handle that. Also I am seeing pain management MD's one for continued radiculopathy after my cervical fusion and one for this low back stuff (2 because of ins. issues) there is conflict there with meds.
    At least my back is not as bad as yest. (now 10/10 instead of 20/10) maybe its going to improve some.
    PS what is pm and how does it work? (that probably sounds stupid but I'm new here and don't chat much online) Thanks. Rhonda
  9. by   GingerSue
    PS what is pm and how does it work? (that probably sounds stupid but I'm new here and don't chat much online) Thanks. Rhonda[/QUOTE]

    pm is for private message, and if you want to send a pm to someone here, then you just look in the upper left side of the post, that's where the person's name is located
    then you click on their name and the box appears with the "private message"
    (I learn something new everyday)

    keep well
  10. by   needs help
    Quote from GingerSue
    PS what is pm and how does it work? (that probably sounds stupid but I'm new here and don't chat much online) Thanks. Rhonda
    pm is for private message, and if you want to send a pm to someone here, then you just look in the upper left side of the post, that's where the person's name is located
    then you click on their name and the box appears with the "private message"
    (I learn something new everyday)

    keep well[/QUOTE]
    Thanks!
  11. by   begalli
    Quote from needs help
    In response to your first question I'm sorry to say yes. I don't mean to alarm anyone. I have thought about it 'logically' and cannot do anything. the pain something like that would cause my family is unbearable to think about....to allay fears I have no intentions or plans.
    I tried to tell the GP the last time i saw him but I worry that if i say I am having these thoughts i will be put on a mandatory 72 hour hold in a psych unit (state law) I could not handle that.
    Your fear of a 72 hour hold, I think, is justified, but I would think that with what stated in the first part I quoted, your doctor should realize that you need help, but not something as radical as a hold and steer you in the right direction as earle58 states, a psychiatrist to manage your depression properly.

    At any rate, the very best to you. I have never been in a place such as yours, I would think that it takes a lot just to come here and talk about it and respond to other's replies. That is one good thing you're doing for yourself!
  12. by   barefootlady
    Needs Help,
    As my tag line states you have taken the first step in a long and sometimes painful journey. I know it takes great courage to face our inner fears. Please do whatever you need to do to get help and remain safe. I hope you will not be offended if I say a prayer for you and for each one of the posters who shared so much of their lives and their struggles on this particular thread. Please stay in touch, we do care and want you to feel better.
  13. by   chadash
    Thank you for keeping us updated. I have a family full of OCD and depression, and I know how difficult it is. In addition to PTSD being instumental in cause/ trigger, there are some studies that suggest there is a very strong genetic component.
    I will say this: not everyone understands these disorders. Those who do not struggle in this way rarely have the empathy to understand something so remote from their experience. Try not to let this get you more down. I remind my self often, would I understand this if I had not experienced it personally?
    OCD makes depression so much more complex. It is so important to talk to your physician about this as well as finding adequate treatment for your pain. Pain that has gone undiminished for this long time is depleting your ability to cope. If you are stressed, this effects your brain chemistry, which really can set the OCD into overdrive! Alot of the thoughts that are troubling you may have this as a source. PLEASE let your doctor know and loved ones know if you feel you are unsafe.
    I am saying all this only from the heart. I am not a nurse yet, so take this as only a fellow human who is concerned for your wellbeing.
    I have been so impressed with the responses of so many of the nurses: remarkable empathy.
    You are in my prayers!

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