Hello fellow nurses! I recently graduated nursing school
and became a licensed registered nurse! 😊 I'm very happy and proud of my accomplishment. I was also able to land an internship rotating throughout different floors immediately after school even before being licensed!
We're about to move out, I'm about to lease my first apartment. We - meaning my mother and I. She's in her late 50s, divorced, and well I'm going to take care of her. I was approved to lease at these amazingly beautiful apartments.
While I'm starting my first RN job ever in a few days I will also be in the midst of moving to my first apartment ever. I'm a little stressed, extremely excited, and I guess the best word to describe my current state is ambivalent.
I wanted to provide you with a current overview of where I stand.
So today somehow graduate school came up, I told my mother that a few years into the future I may actually consider CRNA or maybe Acute Care Nurse Practitioner. I was met with with immediate undertones of disapproval of CRNA that were easily detectable in her body language and "what ifs". Eventually she basically said, "I don't want to beat around the bush but I don't think you're cut out for it. Just look at how stressed you were during nursing school".
Here's the thing. My level of stress was pretty much congruent to the stress of most of my classmates. I don't think she understands. Anyway this REALLY hurt me. I feel so defeated and betrayed. I just want to DO IT now. I want to become a CRNA and show her that I can. I don't want to become a CRNA to prove to her, but her unfortunate disbelief in me is fueling me to accomplish this.
I want to reiterate that plans for CRNA or ACNP are on my agenda but I want to be in the trenches first. Gain my experience, and get my feet wet.
I feel defeated by her. This is definitely not what I need starting out as a brand new baby nurse in a few days.
I guess I'm asking for some lifting up. I need some support and advice. 😊
Jul 4, '14
Thanks everyone. I really appreciate everyone's insight and encouragement.
As it turns out she told me later that she was concerned the stress of CRNA school may pose a physical harm. She told me she saw my stress levels and sleepless nights (careplans the day prior to clinical LOL) and it worried her.
I made a point that while CRNA education will be a stressful phase and obviously tougher than nursing school, that I will be prepared if I go that route. I have survived regular old nursing school stress. If I go that route by then I would have been a nurse for quite a while (more stress survival). While It wouldn't necessarily make CRNA school "easier", my stress management certainly would have matured even more by then.
Last edit by StudentOfHealing on Jul 4, '14