Quote from nurse2be09
Thanks so much for your wisdom! I have come to realize that there will always be some things I love about nursing and some things I will always hate about nursing. But I'm trying to love it more than I hate it.
It's so hard being a new grad and realizing how much I really DONT know. My confidence is non existant and my stress level is through the roof. My frustration level is off the charts now. I try not to be so hard on myself, so I'm learning more about myself and growing each night I work.
The things they DONT teach you in nursing school
You hit the nail on the head when you stated that it is hard being a new grad and realizing how much you don't know. I went through the OMG shock of knowing very little when I started my first job as a new grad. What you were describing sounds just like how I was when I started my first job. I really think that I thought that everyone expected my to know everything and to be perfect. I was driving myself nuts on my off time thinking of all the things that I did not do, what I needed to do better, and how everyone else seemed to be better and smarter than me (even the new grads that just graduated with me). I was honestly working on a nervous breakdown.
One day I made up my mind that I do not nor will I ever know enough and I most certainly will not be perfect. I will mess up from time to time. There will always be someone faster, smarter, or just plain have it together better than I and that was ok. That faster, smarter, or just plain have together better than I people became my resource people when I did not know what to do or I was running behind.
Here is the most important conclusion that I came to that day: if I did not kill somebody or cause injury to somebody I did not mess up that bad so I am not worrying about it.
Almost three years later I am still a nurse and I have not messed up badly enough to hurt or kill someone, so I guess I am doing ok. I now train new nurses and that is a lot of fun. However, I have not yet achieved a level of knowledge that I wish I had, but that keeps me learning new things.
Overall, you can do this and nobody expects you to know everything.