My Crazy Month

Gpa died about 515 this am. I wasn't there, but I believe he went peacefully. He is in a better place and is no longer suffering.

After being in the hospital for over 8 weeks, gma was released into a SNF facility today. She refused long term dialysis. She is still able to get up and walk, for now. Her bloodwork continues to be an issue, (she has had 12 units of blood in the 8 weeks in the hospital), her kidneys were slowly improving are slowing starting to fail again now that she has refused anymore dialysis. She is still in CHF. Her spunk and fire is dwindiling away. She is getting tired. My mother, my gpa and I have discussed hospice, but my gpa thinks that hospice means giving up, and states that since she is still able to get up and move around, that she is still able to fight. Mom and I know that gma's body is giving up. Her kidney failure will not go away, nor will her CHF, nor will her blood problems.
Gma wants to go home, and I hope and pray that she will be able to make it there. She is in the nursing home for skilled care and rehab so that in hopes of one day soon going back home with gpa.
The thing is, for every good day that she has, she has at least one bad if not worse day following or previous to it. That is her cycle. A good day followed by a bad day or two followed by a good day or two.
I will continue to hope and pray against all odds that she will make it home and that she will be with us for years to come, but I keep in the back of my head the reality of it all, gma won't make it much longer.

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS

My Gma is doing well in the SNF facility. She is continuining to do her exercising, and seems to be getting stronger each day. She is bound and determined to be going home to Gpa.

Although her battle with the chronic renal failure, CHF, and blood issues are far from over, she continues to fight each and every day.

Again, I thank each and every one of you for your prayers. I do not believe she would have made it this far without them. THANK YOU.