Hello all. I would like to introduce myself, and tell you a little bit about me, and hope for some of your feedback. My name is Josh. I'll be 34 in July, and am seriously considering becoming an RN. Unfortunately, I have a HUGE amount of obstacles to navigate through. I have a serious weight problem, as I am over 500 lbs. I have been working for a private security agency for the last 11 years making horrible money. I only recently got my GED 3 years ago.
Because of my situations, I also suffer from depression. Recently, I nearly had a breakdown because off the crossroads I have come to in my life. I decided that it was time for me to find a real career where I can earn decent money, and enjoy what I am doing. I can honestly say that I never up until recently considered being an RN. The idea came to while thinking about a career that has some security in it. Well, after doing lots and lots of research, I feel this would be a good job for me. I really am a very compassionate person. (Maybe too much, really)
While doing my research into getting into the community college's program, I have found that it is one that is of a "competitive" nature. From what I gather, you could literally get a 4.0 and still not be accepted to it. This really scares me because I goofed off the entire time I was in school, and eventually just quit. I have never learned any good study habits, and have a very lazy mind. I was also very discouraged to find out that I would have to probably quit my 3rd shift job as a security guard because of the time conflict.
Apparently, the hours of class would start at 8am in the morning. I don't get off work until 8am in the morning. This made me very anxious, because I don't have rich parents or a trust fund or anything like that. I will basically have to eat rice and noodles, and rent a cheap room from somebody's house while I flip burgers on the weekends to try and keep shelter over my head while I am attending school. This is not a problem for me. I don't mind eating noodles today so I can have steak tomorrow. I am just very nervous about the competition process. If I give up what little I already have, and am not successful in nursing school, this would devastate me. Failure would not be an option.
Not to mention, I probably have to loose about 250 lbs before I can even get into nursing school. Theres no way that I can stand on my feel all day rite now. I have basically started eating small meals now, because I have a goal to shoot for. Instead of going to Wendy's and getting a half dozen burgers, I brought a turkey sandwich on wheat and an apple for lunch. No more Chinese buffets for dinner, instead, salmon and a small russet potato with fruit. I have anxiety disorder, and food usually comforts me, but I can't do it anymore. I am very unhealthy rite now because of my size. I am just really really nervous about failing when I get in because I can't fail!
I am going to be living super poverty stricken in order to pursue this goal. I am hoping while I am in school I can find some people that can teach me to study and learn things. I know nursing school is VERY VERY difficult and there is a lot of information to learn. I often wondered if I have a learning disability. I was diagnosed with ADD when I was a boy. Perhaps, I will go talk to a doctor about getting on something for that. I think I still may have it. It's hard for me to concentrate on reading and what not.
Anyway, I just would like to hear from you folks about anything that may be able to help me. Also, I would really like to try to make some friends on here too. It would be great to have someone to talk to when it comes time to questions about the field. Coincidentally, I don't know any nurses. Anyway, thank you very much for taking the time to read my topic, and I very much look forward to hearing from you. Have a great day.