I've missed this forum!!!

  1. Hello all. I have been gone for a while. Well, first of all, I failed lpn school. I wasn't devastated or anything because for some reason, the Lord was preparing me for what was to come. My mother went into the hospital 2 months before school I started and stayed until October. She spent 4 months there and during that time, she was going through a spiritual transition. I did not know at the time. She had a spirit of discernment. And she often told me that the Lord wasn't ready for me to start school at that time and that I needed to wait. But I thought I knew it all...Boy was I wrong. Like I said in a previous post, we as human beings can only see right now, but the Lord can see until the end of time.

    I started school anyway and little did I know, my mother was dying. She knew this. She went in June 12, 2008 with an awful infection in her exit cite. She was a dialysis patient. While in there, she suffered a heart attack which made her heart work only 10%. Even though I am the oldest child, I was considered her baby because I was a mama's baby and always clinged to her. Little did I know that she was giving up and on March 6, 2009, my mother, my "black queen" my best friend, my everything went home to be with Jesus. Valentines Day, she suffered a heart attack and was basically brain dead for 3 weeks. This is the hardest task I have had to tackle in my life. I just knew that I was going to lose my mind, but because of My Jesus and his love, I am alright and so is Mother Dearest.

    I just cut this story short because I am getting overwhelmed. But I wanted you all to know that I haven't given up on school nor life and I have missed ALLNURSES!!!
  2. 8 Comments

  3. by   melmarie23
    I am so sorry to hear about your loss.

    Wishing you all the best in your future endeavors.
  4. by   feisty
    I am sorry for your loss. I am sure that your mother would be so proud of your determination. Continue to pursue your dream.
  5. by   tnbutterfly
    Welcome back!!

    Bless your heart. You have been through so much. But you have a beautiful attitude and a spirit that I'm sure your mother would be proud of. This experience will give you insight and compassion to be a wonderful nurse. Hang on to your dream.
  6. by   Grace Oz
    Condolences on the sad loss of your beloved mother.
    I wish you every happiness and succes both personally and professionally in the future.
  7. by   leslie :-D
    i'm so sorry about your mom.
    in spite of your loss, you sound extremely wise, strong and refueled with love.

    welcome back, rn2b...
    you're going to be soooo ok.:icon_hug:

  8. by   Cejai
    I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved mother. :icon_hug:
  9. by   FireStarterRN
    Welcome back, so sorry about all your hardship and the loss of your dear mom.
  10. by   Midwest4me
    :icon_hug:I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. You do have a great outlook though and your determination will see you through. God bless you and lead you where HE feels is best.