I am in my 8th week of BSN program and still waiting for the cobwebs to untangle in my brain. At the end of each day at school (and clinical) I feel a huge "whew" complete with with slow-moving, dragging limbs! Almost every day I feel like an imposter in this nursing program that someone unwittingly allowed me to participate in. As each new week of school compounds on the previous weeks, it doesn't seem to get better - if anything, it gets worse.
Before nursing school
, I learned to feel smart and capable and able to organize myself, stay focused and take on leadership roles. Seems all that is from some past life and what I experience now is the dread of feeling like some incompetent, crumpled wad donning the face of a stoic, competent wannabe nurse.
I really DO want to be a nurse and have worked so hard to get here ---- why does it feel like the ground is being yanked out from underneath me!? Some insight and wisdom would sure be appreciated here!
Oct 12, '06
Yup, I felt (still sometimes feel) the same way. I think it has to do with us starting into nursing school later in life. As llg said, we'd moved beyond novice stage in our lives already. And nursing school is HARD. Sometimes I think it is made harder than it needs to be, but that's a whole different discussion.
That feeling does start to fade, though, hang in there. (Then we'll feel that way all over again when we actually start working!!!)
I'm in my senior year of my BSN. Every once and a while I realize how much I really have learned so far, and believe me, you learn a lot. Each quarter it seems as if I'm just struggling to get through, but when its done, it is such a feeling of accomplishment.
You will be so very proud when you've made it through.
Last edit by Halinja on Oct 12, '06